starting new semester and yet time flies...

is like just start new semester, and now all assignments and presentations are just in front of me..

no idea how to do it..and mood also..

feel stress and cant cope with all the studies

do not know whether is my problem or other problems...

going to church and hearing the sermon really help me lots...

knowing what God really wanna me to do and act on it..

continuous praying that Abba will changed my heart and thinking..

so that i could understand,not the situation changed but is my heart changing...

今天的心情有点奇怪， 很难形容……

又开始传新帖了，

有人说我都没更新。人就是开始懒了。

hmm....

就从internship说起吧。

3个月的internship就在2个月的时间结束了，

说真的，心情有点矛盾

在工作时就像快结束，

结束后，又有点不舍。

矛盾吧？？！！

在当中，也学习不少，而且还认识新朋友。

internship结束了，我也难免有点开心，因为终于可以大声的说：“我可以用学生卡了。”省不少钱。

学生怎样都是时间比较有弹性，不像做工 9am-5pm。

internship完了，还剩1个月的假期。

读了3年，也还真的没有尝试过有1个月的假期。

终于，假期我来了…………

假期当中，什么也没做。

在家好好的休息

吃饱，睡觉，看戏，上网

轻松。。。。

很快，

假期也结束了

回到学校，又开始忙绿。

功课，assignment，presentation...

可是，时间真的过的好快，

今年，final year了。

然后，又烦要干什么。

这整个假期让我“看见”不少事，

我不知不觉对事物了解了不少

我也终于明白，人，是那样的。

说真的，

心里有点不爽那种散播谣言的人，

可是好像感谢他让我看清更多的事情

很多人都在问我还生气他吗，

我还真怀疑，是他生气我所以散播故事，还是我因为他散播谣言而生气

不管了， 问题在不愉快的情况下也解决了

我觉得，不理会，不发言，不解释是最好的方法。

我高兴，因为也因为这件事，让我知道我真正的知心朋友。

hmm...

所以，

现在的目标就是…………

你猜吧！！！

has been i long time not updating my lovely blog...

end up one month internship with online...

still left 2 months to go..

well..

quite regret, choosing this company..

i thought i could learned up lots of things the end of interns

but it seem like........NO

learned nothing until this moment.

maybe after this will have lots of works

but do not know why

i had lose my motivation

this is the first having this kind of feeling..

i always feel excited in doing things

but this time..

really...lack of motivation

and lack of mood in doing so..

holidays and rest mood is always in my mind..

feel like having a long break before the next sem start

still wondering should i end up my 3 months in wasting my time

or moving from comfort zone to a new situation...

God, lead me and teach me

totally have no idea on it...

Tiring in thinking of it...

left one and half month...

should i continue with it or should i??

today,

five of us met each other in different situation..

should feel happy because finally we met up in KL but all of us meet up is due to one incident

should i consider happy or sad??!!!

everyone have their own plans...

everyone keep their problem in their heart...

i really feel sad when i know it...

really...

i just do not want to lose anything...

i cannot imagine, how was it when everything was just done...

pray hard all this won't happen...

i just believe God will be there right beside us and all the things will not happen on us...

for those that i loved, think twice....

do not do something that you regret throughout your life....

remember....more things are waiting for you to be done...^^

no more student???

or considered as working adult??

start work for almost one month..

well, nothing to do..

wait until task to be given...

left 2 months to end the internship program...

knowing new friends, new environment, everything was new...

somehow, i really hope everything will be moving fast and well...

feel like wanting a holidays...

this year was the first year where we celebrate valentine's day together..

we had been together for more than 2 years but this is the first time we celebrated together..

yeepee...

although we just ate dinner together as a celebration but it is enough...

hope we still can celebrate next year..

what a long time din not writing blog...

busy with exam and all stuff....

final exam??

can i said i made it a mess for the whole final exam...

not sure what am i writing in the exam...

first time having that terrible feeling..

which is not sure pass or fail for the exam...

hope God take good care of those problems...

searching of people to stay in my sis's room for at least 2 months...

hard to get a roommate by the way

and this wasn't make me feel good

where i met lots of problems in the mid..

esp human problems..

hardly deal with human special's behavior

i do hope all these problem will settle down before Feb

sometimes,

human are weird

human can only remembered bad things about the others but not the good things

isn't this weird??!!

bad things come in my mind first before any other thing else...

i wondered why this happen...

somehow,

after final exam on 18th of Jan

will have a great holidays...

stop exam for at least 3 months..

no exam life...

GREAT!!!!

and i pray that God will provide me with the strengths and wisdom to work with others...

Almost come to an end of 2010..

and the month of December was filled with wonderful trip to Bandung...

some people wondering why am I going to Indonesia, and not other places...

but....

Bandung is really a nice place to visit...

the weather there is quite cold...

but the traffic there is super terrible..

traffic light = no traffic light...

motorbike lots more than car...

although the traffic there lack of systematic but the people still got no problem with that..

is slightly different from KL driver..

they seldom 'hon' others even traffic jam..

kids are selling foods, drinks etc in the middle of the road...

some of the kids are just walking around with no shoes...

the gap between the rich and poor are large...

can just see the different obviously...

My family and I visit lots places over there...

first,

SHOPPING!!!!

we really mad and crazy shopping...

buy lots of branded clothes...

and yet...

still not able to visit all factory outlet....

second,

we went to Tangkuban Perahu volcano, super cold here..

and its height is 2000 meters above sea level...

we almost take one and half hour to that volcano...

long distance with cold weather and nice screen...

after the volcano,

foods are the things that come into our mind...

we decided to take our lunch at kampoeng Daun...

a place where we can enjoy our lunch in the jungle...

the food there not expensive and it is delicious...

we also visit kampoeng strawberry...

This is the first time that we can eat and at the same time pick up the strawberry...

the strawberry there are all sweet and nice...

and the price there also very cheap where you can buy 1 kg of strawberry with only RM10..

we try lots of Indonesian food...

the famous one is Ayam Goreng Suharti...

nasi padang... etc...

I am the person who not really can eat spicy food

and now...

i took five days of spicy foods...

we also meet a nice and good driver where he fetch us from hotel and visit every places that we want..

his name is Algus...

he is so patient with us where we have different places to visit in one day...

In conclusion,

it is really a nice place to visit if you are crazy with shopping...

photos will be upload soon..

Hoo....

coming to the end of 2010...

lots of things happen within this year...

Lots of changes in my life as well...

BUT

one thing that forever never change..

God still with me all the times...

This year was the first where i helps as the English-Chinese translator..

helps in PA System...

helps as a clay teacher...

lots more.....

all these are because being bless by God..

and His strength, wisdom always provided to me...

quite busy recently...

assignments, mid-term test, working.....

i really thank God...

this semester was a fearful semester for me...

2 subjects of finance where I really have no idea on it...

research.... the lecture..hmm... no bad, I can still learned something from her

]just bit emotions....

I still remembered few weeks before the presentation and submission of BR project

I was afraid on it...

I prayed hard that He will take control of everything..

REALLY...

on that day, He really take control of everything...

MId-term test??!!

honestly,

His wisdom provided to me...

although i had no idea on every subjects

but,

not bad for mid-term test...^^

working??!!

tiring day as i worked in Kid's fair for 2 days...

Kid's fair is the place where lots of kids are there....

taught lots children

from 2 years old till......adults...

tired but really learned lots there

communication with children and parents...^^

Thank God,

got a phone call from one company for interview...

not sure whether can get it or not...

but...

i believe everything was been planned Abba...

so...

no worries...^^

Christmas coming.....

but...

not able to celebrate here....

Going to Bandung, Indonesia...^^

celebrate there??

will be a memorable Christmas....

long post....

somehow,

pray that next year, 2011 will be a better year for everyone...

had been closing this blog for quite a long time...due to some reasons...

is open up again...^^

tiring semester 2...

really need to work hard for it

where i wouldn't let the same problem again...

coming soon to the end of 2010...

moving forward to 2011...

well...

really need to pray hard that what is my whole year plan for coming year(*from God)

hoping for better year...

Finally...

once a year...

my birthday was over....

hmm...

what can i said??!!

thanks for all the wishes from my friends, cousins, family...

those who wish me through calls, sms and write on my wall in FACEBOOK

somehow...

did not have a great birthday but have those beloved to celebrate with me...

jac(my sis)

kok jun, yeow, jian wei (housemates)

pit ling all over from kepong, bih yar from all over B17-8

and ivan celebrate birthday with me....

haha...

they wanna gave me a surprise but acting like no electricity

but planning left out with small little mistake which is din planned with those who are not here as well....

HAHA...phone calls....

somehow, thank you for the cake, presents, surprise and small celebration...

in the afternoon,

ivan was buying me a super big secret recipe cake for me...

wooohooo....

huge cake...

i think i will gain in weight after eating all of it.....

thanks ya...ivan...

before my birthday, ivan was like wanna just buying a pack of rice ONLY...

somehow,

the rice change to cake

and having pizza at night...

although everything was a small wishes or celebration

but it is enough to show all the care and love from all of you...

happy with that...^^

i think the goal for this moment is pass all the exam paper..
well...
few more days to final exam..
preparation?? no
study?? not really...
understand of the subject?? totally not...
and yet exam is nearer..
this was the first time i really did lots of last minutes work
for example in my assignment and now...exam...
am i too relax previously and now cannot catch up everything...
i really do not know whether i am in stress or not
because i look like not really stress
but i am afraid of it...
in the first day of this semester
i thought off wanna get good result which is much more better than preciously...
but it seems like impossible...

i think i had made a wrong decision on something...
i really hope all will just be settle in A TIME...

sometimes i just wondering of myself
what is the big deal when you just have a small little illnesses such as gastric, cough and so on...
and you really look at it as a serious illnesses where you show and tell others that you are weak
compare to those who fight for their lives with illnesses in order to live...you weak or they weak??
when i read the magazines
really jealous of them..
where they still laugh and smile always
and also THEY DON'T THINK IT WAS A BIG DEAL...
and
what is the big deal when you just get 'kick' by your boyfriend or girlfriend??
is this is main purpose of your life??
and
what is the big deal when you just losses everything on earth??
you still have the loves supporting you...
there is lots of things in this world that are so important to us...
where i think i would not stay with the problem until i die...

my blog is dead for a long while..
and I AM COMING BACK AGAIN...
is week 13 now..
2 more weeks to my first final exam of Adv Dip..
have no idea on the subjects i took for this semester..
and i am like still in holiday mood...
really need that kind of 'motivation' to start my revision...
this time feel some stress because advance dip is totally different from diploma
is like more hard, more busy, more last minutes work compared to last time
really afraid that cannot get good mark for exam...
quite disappointed when i got the total marks for assignment or mid term test..
is quite low....and quite sad bout it..
maybe i had no really study so...
haiz...
hope that i really can do in my exam...
by the way...
i cannot celebrate my birthday this year...
the exam fall on 26th, 28th,30th of august and 2nd of sept..
huhu..
need to celebrate my birthday by reading the books...
and my birthday present is 'words'


i am like quite long din not dwell in the presence of God..
kinda miss Him where He is there always for me
i still remembered few times in Praise and celebration session
i had a deep feeling that He is there with all of us...
He always touch my heart in different ways..
songs, words and more...
He keep on reminding me that He is there with me no matter what..
and i saw myself dance happily with Him in the garden where the garden super beutiful(i think cannot get in the world)
and also saw myself have freedom where i can fly freely all over the place....the freedom that i get is hard to describe..
and it was the most freely way that i had ...
is always hard to decribed the freedom and happinest i get when i dwell in the presence of Him...

these few weeks..
really feel tired..
sleep quite early and wake up quite late...
besides, still had a small nap which is few hours in the afternoon...
is like all of my times spend on sleeping...
must remind myself not to sleep too much..

these few weeks was a busy week
where i just finished rushing all my assignment
and all the mid term test
and i just finished joining advance class for clay..
really feel that i am weak in doing clay when i saw the work from teacher
where she really can made everything in a few while compared to me...
she might just take a short time to finish one project but me....longer time...
will post some photos on what i had did...

last but not least....
gambateh to all of my friends who take final exam ^^

is week 10 now...
almost come to the end of the semester....
and also going to finish all assignment soon....
then come final exam
and FINALLY
today is my first convocation
although it is not convocation of degree cert
but this was my first convocation of my life...
happy...
i still remembered when i first entered TARC...
heard lots of people said hard to graduate and all that...
but unbelievable...
GRADUATED...
moving to another stage of study which is much more harder compared to last time
need to study harder...
by the way..
congraz to all my friends who graduated with me as well...^^
thanks for my parent,
they purposely came to KL just to attend my convocation
and of cause my friends....
thanks for the flower and cute piggy also....
will upload more photos....

seven dwarfs

Jesus and the sheep

used lots of time finishing all this...

feel happy when i see all these which is done by me myself...^^

今天还真是有够烦。。。
昨天赶出来的assignment， 就因为电脑无端端有问题
资料在一瞬间 没了
真想哭 T.T
所以电脑还真的信不过
而我
还是要重新做过
有够气
今晚几点才能睡呢？？
想说晚餐吃些好的补回
可是还是没机会
想找个钢琴弹弹都没有
还真是不知道哪里还有我能出气的地方
好怀恋以前每当我心情不好时，有钢琴在的地方
haiz....

想找个人聊都不行
各有各忙的
各有各的烦恼

明天也算是我最后一天做工
虽然工作上还算蛮轻松
可是，还是会感觉到累
真的好想好想轻轻松松看场戏
好久没看戏了
不知是不是会在9月才有机会呢？？ *因为9月放假

有好几次
我都在想
人是不是很现实
我时常都觉得在我身边的人都好假
感觉上他们比戏里面的主角都厉害
所以到底谁是真，谁是假
你。。。。。分辨的到吗？？
真的好想好好的睡一觉
真的累了。。。。

getting lots and lots of assignments...
is like no end for it...
tired of it...
lack of sleeping....
the worst thing is
MY HOUSE GOT NO INTERNET LINE...
hoo....
can u imagine i spend lots of money in CC
which is really wasting money
hope we would get internet line soon
no movie can be watched
no MSN
no google....

getting busy and busy
busy of doing assignment
i think the time for us to pass up are not reasonable...
we have lesser time to finish it and i think it is super hard to finish it
by the way, i am BUSINESS student....
IT....have no idea....
somehow,still need to be done on time....
feel bit scare for the interview on tomorrow...
this is the first time which looks so serious and asking question in a formal way....
i think the assignment for this subject is quite troublesome...
need to have this and need to have that...
luckily this was the last IT paper in my whole life...

still remain unchanged
the new sem had started...
is in week 2 now...
only 2 main papers and 2 language papers...
3 of the lecturer quite good,it means i still understand what they teached....*not bad....
only the ISCM lecturer, i could said his way of teaching is super special until i had no idea on what he is teaching....can i considered him young and inexperienced???
most of the assignments staring soon...
will be a busy life from now on...
need to re-focus on the subjects...
thinking whether wanna join convo or not??!!
any ideas or comments??
my mum asking me not to join because still have another chance but still depend on me...
so.....*thinking

going to start working on next week...
excited??tired??....*no idea
this was the very first time i work...
this work considered easy and relaxing...
hope that i able to handle working and studying at the same time...^^

finally i had finished my clay teacher course last month...
spending my time to finished the LAST project which is snow white and seven dwarfs
finishing soon!!
taking the new extra course soon...^^
excited...
i am excited in learning a new thing
when i looked back my schedule,
seem like very packed
somehow,is better than doing nothing right??

busying finding room also...
searching a better place..
hard to get a good and comfortable place...
*finger-crossed* pray that can get it soon....
i hope the best friend that you said is me...*if i am not too love...haha...you know is YOU i am talking to...my beloved friend*
yup...
problems are still there...
no solving...
maybe someone think that it is solved...
but for me...is still there...
maybe someone is curious on what am i thinking or what is the thing i wanted or why are you taking care too much on the problems??wow...really lots of question...
your words keep moving in my mind...i still rmembered you said 'from last time till now, you would care what people think or talk bout you, why this time care so much??'
yaya...my best friend, you are right!!
and on last week P&C, seriously God told me something...*secret!!!
i think i will considered bout it...^^
if you interested on what am i thinking and stand still with, you can always ask me... why need to purposely asked others??!!
asking my friend or the people around me would not get the answers!!
maybe you think asking them might get what you want but i can tell you, you would never get the answer from them....

i realize human are always thinking of themselves...
maybe it could considered as selfish??
it seldom happened that A would do something for B except A&B are best friend, family or your loved one...
even friend seldom would do that for you...
do you realized that also??
is right for those who only think for themselves...
really....
and no wrong....
is just OVER thinking for themselves is really bad....
it means no other opinion would taken from you or no comments are needed from you...
haiz...
this is how the world works...

finally....
we are divided into groups
although it looks like good
but i feel like it is unfair...
those bad time table was given to us and good time table they took...
although the time table was changed every semester
but it seem like no different
because first group always having nice time table...
no choice...
have to follow up to 14 weeks
totally have no idea on it....
it seem like all the problems had settle but the results was disatisfy by me...
again...
no choice...
FOLLOW and accept it is the only way...