cOmInG

today,
my best friend came to KL...
my class start at 8am today...
after class i try my best to rush back to home
because i do not want my friend came here and just nothing
and is like left a guest at house...
the important thing is he is not my GUEST,
he is my BEST FRIEND...

right after class...
Jared,Pit ling and me went for shopping...
at first,
we went to sungai wang
then,we go pavillion
after that we went to Jusco
wow...
whole day walking
tired...but happy...
we went for movie : Bangkok Dangerous
and eat for whole day without buying anything...

almost 11pm,
we only reached home
then,
is time to start chatting and making fun...
i mean our time...although David and Kelven not there with us...
we talked a lots and share anything that keep in our heart...
and we organized a club called "blur club"
three of us are blur...
normally Jared not that blur but today he really blur..
maybe he joined me too much...
agree???
hehez...
and i am happy that finally i have chance to talked with him face to face about all the problems...
i know i am wrong in such way but hope you(you know who you are)can forgive me
i pray that everything will be fine...

m3-2

i am wondering how to people look at me as jasmine....
cool???
cold-blooded??
friendly??
clever??
stupid??
or????
do not judge me by just looking at me..
i don't like it..
i am what in front of people???
and also don't criticize me
people is always not qualified to judge or criticize me...
unless you think that you are qualified to do so...
if you think i would say anything about you in front of others...
then you are wrong..
because i am changing back to the old jasmine
who do not care for anything
it is easy for not caring for anything around us
because less problems and argument
sometimes i feel that people will always throw away your kindness or your care..
do not act like you are so understand me
i tell you...
you forever will not know and understand i am doing
because you are not me...

拒绝

一群朋友聚在一起讨论问题
突然有人发现王老五的头发既长且乱
他的好友李四，
很认真的劝他赶紧去理发
王老五推三阻四的不肯
最后值得招认
“不瞒你说，是因为前街杂货店的张太太上月跌断了腿，我才没去理发”
李四奇怪的问：
"张太太跌断了腿，与你何干？”
王老五接着说道：
“是啊。我没理发，又与你何干？”




有人习惯性的找理由，
抗拒别人的善意和规劝，
而悍然抗拒别人的关怀，
把自己封闭在孤绝的境地，

结果逼得自己，

退缩到心灵深处的黑暗角落里

fInaLly

finally...
finally
and finally
finally i reached home from college
finally i can rest myself for few minutes
finally i manage to understand what is the lecturer teaching
finally some of the problems settle down
a lots of finally for today...
but my life still haven end with finally...

today really feel tired...
both physically and mentally also tired..
really want to rest my soul,my mind and my body under His embrace...
i always remembered the verses that saying by God to us
"My grace is sufficient for you,for my power is made perfect in weakness.Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses,so that Christ's power may rest on me"
which stated in 2 Corinthians 12:9
i really like this verses a lots
because He is the only one that can let me rest on Him..
He is the only that can help me in such a way that many of us cant
He is a good Father indeed...

next week going to start presentation and coursework
pray that i can handle it welly..
i know He will be my side whenever i go...

huge camp....
really want to go...
but how???
got coursework...
God's plan is always perfect...
He will let me know what am i going to do...
maybe after this i might got a good news

violin class....
should i learn it or not...
one more question in my mind...
i am asking myself about this a lots of times
i thought i am going to involve in music anymore
because it is useless for me now
but actually i cant
still want to use it to release all my stress
and it is also good for me to relax myself
but now do i really need it??
i still got enough time??
friends from music center keep on calling me this noon...
how??

How??

presentation and coursework are coming next week
this time i got no confident with it
i scare i cant pass my coursework this time
what can i do now??
study??
i really cannot understand what is the lecturer going to teach me...
is easy but look hard....
i think i need to spend more time in library to get concentration...
at the same time,i must also study hard
so that i can pass all the subject for coming exam....

GoiNg bAcK

going back to kuantan by next week...
time pass super fast...
now is the 4th week for this semester...
sooner i will finish my 1st year
happy when thinking this...
and today,
my friend helped me to count for CGPA...
wow....
to get scholarship
i must get all A's for coming two semester...
can i really do it??
is super hard...

and i just want to say thank you to my friend
who go buy bus ticket with me
thank you...

wAtCh

today,
4 of us went to time square for movie
i know new friend
same college but different school

this is the second time i watched movie in KL...
i like to spend my money in Kuantan's cinema
because cheaper and also not that much people compared to KL...
high school musical 3 is quite nice
the songs that sang by them is nice...

but disappointed because still left one more person that invited by me...
he misunderstanding me...i think...
but hope i will he will join us next time...
and i also hope my other friend will not misunderstanding me
maybe as you said i really change
but....
changing really let me understand a lots of things that i did not know since last time
hope everything will be fine once i open my eyes...
i know it is impossible