31st DEC

today will be the last day for 2008....
going to end everything..
everything that happened this year will be past
but what i doing now still in present
waiting for future...
wish??
dream??
lots for next year...
waiting for it to come...

i think i still left one more thing that haven settle down...
friend's problem
maybe you think i am wrong saying those words to you...
and you think that if i really treat you as friend,
those words will not come out from my mouth...
right??
just say sorry to you here...
maybe you think is not enough...
but is your choice to choose forgive me or not...
won force you to forgive me
just hope we are still friend...
if i know this will be the end of our friendship...
then,
i will not choose as what i did that day...
because i don't hope friendship just end so...
somehow..
this is all i can do...
and if you still making the same decision
then...
this is what you choose...

somehow...
new year coming
i need to look forward but not backward...
waiting new thing come into my life...

thanks Emily..
thanks for your advice
really happy that i still have chance to talked to you
really miss you...
and all of my friends...
although not going back kuantan even have holidays
but i still super miss you all
waiting for the days that i really can crapping with all of you...
always miss the times that we spend together

HAPPY NEW YEAR

13 days to final exam

fiNalLy...

today
after class went to shopping again with yeow...
finally get the shoes that i have been finding so long...
almost walked all the shoes' shop in sg wang
but still cannot get and finally i saw one pair of shoe which almost same as what i want...
then,
not thinking too much it
buy it....

finally i found out the price for sushi buffer per person
quite expensive...
but actually it is almost the same price as normal sushi that i bought...
i think must go try if got chance...

finally,
my parent know what i keep from them since long ago...
since they know it...
i think i am free from something
left out one problem...
yeepee...
happy...
but still have lots of things to worry bout
hope everything will get well soon

14 days to final exam

fEw daYs

left few more days will be the new year for us...
when i recalled back on what i did within the year of 2008...
there is a lot of things happened in my life...
things that i really memorable to me...
this year got lots of happiness
and of cause sadness...
i think i should done more things next year...
got lots of dreams...

today,
he is explaining a lots of things to me
maybe is to calm down the feeling of afraid or scare in my heart...
maybe its help
maybe no
just do not how to explain the feeling...
i know really nothing happened
but how to say...
really cant express it out...
hope everything will be fine
praying hard...for everything...

15 days to final exam

lAsT sUndAy

today will be the last Sunday for 2008...
so fast...
yet now is the last Sunday...
but nothing special
as usual went to church..
is just Sunday for 2008 will not coming back again...

today
while i were praying
telling God what i feel
what i afraid of
what i confuse of
what i worried of
and He is answering my prayer
i know that i am wrong in doing something
He is telling me that i am wrong
at that moment
i just feel so sorry to Him
i do not know what can do..
because until this moment i still afraid and worried of it...
hope all my worries will just go out from my mind...
hope everything will be settle down...

*17 days to final exam*

shOpPinG

today,
just spend almost my whole day at Time Square again..
i went with Ivan...
really bought lots of things
is like almost finish preparing things for Chinese New Year...
did not spend much
but can bought lots....
and of cause must thank him for choosing most of things for me
because i really got no idea in buying clothes
beside,
i think i don't have better taste like him...

after finished buying things
we went for movie
"The Day the Earth stood still"
the story is short
and is like cutting down a lots of story until that short
overall still ok...
and waiting free time to watch Bedtimes story....

SuRpRis3-pArT 2

today is Christmas
the day that i have been waiting for many long...
somehow...
today just passed by normal day...
something that different is he is celebrating the Christmas with me...
he spend his whole day with me...
we just did nothing....
watching some of the series movie....

he is a really nice guy that i had met...
he give me those comfortable feeling when spending time with him...
he won force me to do anythings that i don't like...
he really treat me good...
today,
he is giving me another surprise...
this is the second surprise that he gave to me since i know him...
he is introducing me another friend,Patrick...
a super cute dog...
i really shock
because as usual...
after i finish settle down everything
i will just continue the movie
then suddenly...
he is telling me that he wanna introduce a dog for me
i thought i heard wrong or what
then,
he shown cute Patrick
really cute
thank you so much for doing such lots of things for me...

cHrIstMaS

MERRY　CHRISTMAS
to
MY FRIENDS...

i celebrate my Christmas at hotel...
everything like so different
although the event at here is much more interesting
the venue is like much more grand
the people here more cloud
but the feeling that i have is totally different
i really miss my home church a lots...
my friends are all there
is like more comfortable celebrate with them
a lots of around me at KL here
but i am still like celebrate alone
wanna joined them...
long time did not go yc with them....
last time i am the one who helped in Christmas
but now is my turn sitting down to see the performances
hope that i can joined them next year...

today messages and all the event run through really touch my heart
don't know why
just feel touching...
i just remembered few sentences

we may seem different on the outside
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but inside all the same
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Christmas is about giving and giving no matter what...