mOvIng

as time moving in this world
everyone was just keep on changing...
when my attention moving back to the people that stay around me...
i realized that everyone have their own ways to walk to...
everyone have their plans for the life...
everything was so different now...
is like everything was totally change...

and i really understand and realized it that
sometimes is hard to find someone that you really trust with to talk about everything
even the close one...
the thing that i totally agree with is
the closer the one that you have,
the easier you get hurt bu that person
right??
those close friends is the easier to hurt our heart...
people will always finding the weaknesses and the mistake that others' did
but not the good part...
somehow
only GOD will remember the good that we forget....

finally...
i had finished one coursework
the result still consider medium
is not what i want
maybe my expectation for something too high
maybe
but good right??
at least i have some goals in my mind...
this semester is a tiring semester
everything was so rushed
seldom have time to have a well rest
somehow
thank Abba for everything that He had prepared for me

nowadays
i feel like getting harder and harder to stand up and SPEAK
that is a lots of things kept inside my heart since i realized it...
but i cannot speak it out
because of the close relationship like the friends i know since long ago...
is hard
no matter how
what i did now is just following others' opinion
is not my own opinion anymore...
it got no more jasmine's style now
because watching people face expression is much more harder than going what i want...
because those unhappiness from others' will just lead me to follow them...
i hope there is one day in my life that i can decide something that is agree by everyone...

CarE

i do not sleep well
nose bleeding for at least one hour...
waste lots of tissue
thanks God that He has send someone to me
although he is not staying beside me
but his care still reach to me...
action like continuing calling me is better than ten thousand words...

aFraiD

these few days
something have been putting in my mind for quite long
i received some terrible email from my friends...
i really get a shock
totally shock...

today

Ivan and me went for steamboat buffer again

eat quite lots

is worth too...

^.^v

getting fatter and fatter

my plan for keep fit is going to fail 

T.T

He had answered my prayer

everything was settle down

Thanks Abba

dEep iNsIdE...

sometimes
especially these few days
really feel a bit stress
i feel like i am left out the syllabus that all the lecturer's teaching
i am keep on rushing rushing and rushing
the first thing that come into my mind is RUSH for it
all the presentation
coursework which is coming soon
tutorial works
understand what i do not understand
lots...
although is short semester
but everything was too rush...
today
do not know why
easily get angry
i have lots of things that is going to tell someone
but finally all the words was swallow back...
do not know who can talk to
hard to get someone that is really can talk to
although there is always someone there
but......
is hard...

thank Abba Father that He really hear my prayer
He has bring me through everything that i find it hard to accept in their opinion
i really feel unfair of saying that
i everyone really thought what i get is hard
but thank God...is not
is totally different...
i manage to finish it in one day
and within this one day
He is giving me strength to continue
can u imagine someone that is not eating for one whole day
and lack of sleeping still have energy to do their work??

do not why
still have some indescribable that still keep deeply in my heart
all the problems and stress really influences me lots
crying for few nights for this
just to release it
but is hard too...

at the same times
when i realized my words toward him is so harsh
i really feel sorry and really do not know what to do at that moment
my mind was totally blank
headache...

i think is time for me to take a break by relaxing my mind for not thinking anything...
maybe one movie or one song
or even 'one day trip' in a shopping mall...