sTorY

i realized that our life full of stories....
everything that i had experience is all my stories...
all these stories is all include us....
behind us,
sure got some stories which are so memorable...
sometimes joke down all the stories are fun
because when we looked back
it is so 'cute' that we will did so....
do not ignore the old stories....
you might be surprised that all these are God wants to teach you through them...
so...
stories from the past can give us pointers for the present...

fInIsHeD

finally,
today i had finished QS's coursework...
feel more relaxing
but still cannot take a deep breath
because my economies really bad...
i afraid that i cannot catch up this semester...
i think i should spend more time in studying

besides,
i had finished my tennis's test this morning...
not that good...
still cannot play well.
i think i should practiced more to improve myself....

my friend called me this noon...
he told me what happen this few months in kuantan...
he want me to visit his new shop
i feel shock when he called me just to talk to me...
so long have not been hearing from him...
and i miss his sister too...
can consider as my best friend also...
hope to meet her soon...

tOmOrRoW

tomorrow is my quantities studied's test...
scare and afraid of it
my expectation for this subject is super high....
maybe is because have too high expectation,
i afraid that once it cannot reach what i expect...
i will really disappointed...
afraid of {disappointed} this word...
is a bad word that always come to me
so...
what i learned from every mistake...
is that we cannot put out hope into something....
i mean a little of hope can
but not too much....

i thought choir will come into my life again...
because teacher request me to help her again...
but actually i feel that
i am not that important if she really don't have me..
although i am there,
i still feel that she don't need me...

this noon until evening
i spend most of my time in library....
studying???
i don't this so...
talking???
yaya....
somehow,
after talking and told all my problems
it really relaxing...
a lots of secret kept inside of my heart...
i do not know who to tell and who can really understand me
but this noon...
i make it....
hoo.....
relax...
thanks for listening...

just now,
i took dinner with my parent...
they ordered all my beloved food....
they really love me...
thanks...

sPeaK oUt

sometimes i just wondering whether wanna speak out or tell out all my problems or not....
is hard...
can consider hard...
because until i still cannot get someone that really can solve all my problems except Him...
i really hope that i can get someone that can understand me well
and i do not need to speak out
and he or she know it...
i think is super hard...
who can did so??
unless the person really understand me..
speak or tell out everything really need a lots of braveness ...
if not,
cannot do so easily..

sometimes,
i feel that apologize or say some important words in front of me is important..
words like sorry,thanks and so on
are precious to me...
using other tool to say it is too fake...
only come out from is true and sincere...
because what your mouth speak is come out from your heart...

some hurting's words that speak out by people is really bad...
is hard to control ourselves from saying those words...
but as human...
we sometimes will still do it..
words cannot kill people but it will forever put deep into our heart...
maybe you might not realized that you are speaking those hurting words
but you still do it...

words??
should speak out or not??
hard question right??

gOoD oR bAd

one good news and one bad news for today...
good news is no more accounting class at 6pm until 8pm...
bad news is the class change to morning class,from 9am until 11am...
wow....
Monday our class start at 10am
Tuesday class start at 8am
Wednesday curriculum at 8.30am
Thursday class at 9am...
luckily Friday until Sunday are holidays...
but still need to get up early and end quite late also...
somehow...
teenagers should wake up more early right??

today,
my mum called me up again...
she tole me that they are going to leave KL by this noon..
but when dinner time,
they came to my house and visited me...
nice and sweet right??
they will be going back by tomorrow..
pray that all the angels will protect them....

these few days really feel tired...
really tired
but once i feel tired...
the same verse always come into my mind...
and remind me that He will gives me strength
i still waiting for His confirmation...
something really need me to wait for a long long time...
don't know whether my prayer is answered by Him or not...
just wanna know it quickly...

just now i saw something really make me feel disappointed...
am i really bad??
my language really bad??
my attitude really bad??
am i??
am i??
am i??
no one can really answer me...
now,
cannot think too much on this question
because i had promised someone not to think too much
beside,
this question is not important anymore
somehow...
tomorrow still will come....
waiting for a new day....

SundAy

today...
feel tired but happy
wake up earlier for church
today message is about the position of our heart and mind
this message is like spoken to me...
speak into my heart...
i know what shall i do now
pray hard is the only...
no matter in what aspect....
life partner...studies...relationship between friends or everything...
i will just pray and wait for God's answer...
i know maybe some of you won do that...
but i think this is the best way to do so...
at least i won fall into wrong step
and pastor keep on saying that...
His view is wide and we cannot expect or guess it...
because our view is very shortening...
what He told us,we might not know now...
but soon we will know it...

after praise and celebration,
Ivan and me went for movie...
not that nice....half boring...half interesting...
so...
my advice is better don't watch...

after movie,
we rushed to my aunt's house...
my parent is coming down to KL again...
nice to see them again...
my mum brought a lots of foods for me
is like one month harvesting...
haha..
somehow i should appreciate it very much
cause is all done by my mum who using so much time in it...
thanks...

whOle dAy

today.....
7th of November 2008
just pass quickly by just doing nothing whole day
after woke up...
my friend came to visit as usual
after lunch...
i just spend my time by watching movie...
and doing nothing else...
cannot imagine this is me,jasmine
because i seldom spend my time by just watching movie half of the day...
really not like the old jasmine...
really miss the old jasmine
who can firm in studying and will not waste her time by watching movie...

after dinner...
pit ling and me visited yeow at hospital...
she looked more better than yesterday...
is good...
hope she will get well soon...