tireD

today is a tired day....
i din sleep for more than few hours
and i only slept at this morning 6.30am....
and woke up at 9 something...
fantastic???
i think is more to crazy...
i thought after few hours later,
my energy will be using up
thank God....
until this moment i still quite active
QUITE active....
just went back from farewell party....
for others,
maybe is totally no more energy
but God still provide me with His strength so that i can finished all my work for presentation....
i am still thinking what will happen tomorrow
because tomorrow will be my first time wearing formal skirt to college....
i feel shameful for that....
hope tomorrow will be my first time wearing that and will be my last time wearing that also...

m3mOrAbLe sUnday-part 2

today service end quite early....
quite a lot of things happened this Sunday....
i really cried out when i hug pastor Sharon...
i really both of them a lots
although i just knew them for around half a year....
but i had a deep feeling in them....
they are my second spiritual father and mother...
is like when i met problem,
i do not even said out
they will just knew it....
they are so caring and loving
they always prayed for me when i really needed prayer....
really miss them....
i know what pastor said is true....
this is temporary earth for us to stay in...
we should rejoice for them
because they are following God's footstep...

after service,
we went for movie again....
do u think that we are rich???
no la....is just to relax ourselves
after movie is around 11pm....
we rush for monorel and lrt...
unfortunately,
we miss them....
the lrt's station was closed.....
what can we do???
went back to monorel's station then go back by taxi...
first time watched movie until that late
and just 3 of us....
yeow , Ivan and me....
is fun....

rUshInG

these two days keep on rushing for bm assignment....
too many things haven do....
a lots of information haven search....
is like huge work....
haiz.....
i am so blur doing it....
i totally got no idea in doing it....
really do not know what to do....
blank in my mind....
who can help me??
really need help
and this assignment need to pass up by coming Tuesday..

sTorY

i realized that our life full of stories....
everything that i had experience is all my stories...
all these stories is all include us....
behind us,
sure got some stories which are so memorable...
sometimes joke down all the stories are fun
because when we looked back
it is so 'cute' that we will did so....
do not ignore the old stories....
you might be surprised that all these are God wants to teach you through them...
so...
stories from the past can give us pointers for the present...

fInIsHeD

finally,
today i had finished QS's coursework...
feel more relaxing
but still cannot take a deep breath
because my economies really bad...
i afraid that i cannot catch up this semester...
i think i should spend more time in studying

besides,
i had finished my tennis's test this morning...
not that good...
still cannot play well.
i think i should practiced more to improve myself....

my friend called me this noon...
he told me what happen this few months in kuantan...
he want me to visit his new shop
i feel shock when he called me just to talk to me...
so long have not been hearing from him...
and i miss his sister too...
can consider as my best friend also...
hope to meet her soon...

tOmOrRoW

tomorrow is my quantities studied's test...
scare and afraid of it
my expectation for this subject is super high....
maybe is because have too high expectation,
i afraid that once it cannot reach what i expect...
i will really disappointed...
afraid of {disappointed} this word...
is a bad word that always come to me
so...
what i learned from every mistake...
is that we cannot put out hope into something....
i mean a little of hope can
but not too much....

i thought choir will come into my life again...
because teacher request me to help her again...
but actually i feel that
i am not that important if she really don't have me..
although i am there,
i still feel that she don't need me...

this noon until evening
i spend most of my time in library....
studying???
i don't this so...
talking???
yaya....
somehow,
after talking and told all my problems
it really relaxing...
a lots of secret kept inside of my heart...
i do not know who to tell and who can really understand me
but this noon...
i make it....
hoo.....
relax...
thanks for listening...

just now,
i took dinner with my parent...
they ordered all my beloved food....
they really love me...
thanks...

sPeaK oUt

sometimes i just wondering whether wanna speak out or tell out all my problems or not....
is hard...
can consider hard...
because until i still cannot get someone that really can solve all my problems except Him...
i really hope that i can get someone that can understand me well
and i do not need to speak out
and he or she know it...
i think is super hard...
who can did so??
unless the person really understand me..
speak or tell out everything really need a lots of braveness ...
if not,
cannot do so easily..

sometimes,
i feel that apologize or say some important words in front of me is important..
words like sorry,thanks and so on
are precious to me...
using other tool to say it is too fake...
only come out from is true and sincere...
because what your mouth speak is come out from your heart...

some hurting's words that speak out by people is really bad...
is hard to control ourselves from saying those words...
but as human...
we sometimes will still do it..
words cannot kill people but it will forever put deep into our heart...
maybe you might not realized that you are speaking those hurting words
but you still do it...

words??
should speak out or not??
hard question right??