tAlKiNg

i think i had been emphasize this a lots of times...
what you speak is just come out from your heart...
while you think so much,
then those angry feeling will just store in your heart and finally
you just do it by action or by talking

trust or don't trust depend on how you look at me...
different people have different view when looking at me as jasmine
and i cannot control the way you look at me,right??
i cannot change your view or comment on me...
so...
no point i keep on explain on i did and so on....
i am no those person that like to give explanation...
i will not like to give explanation when i am wrong
for me,
wrong means wrong
correct means correct
don't change the facts...
and those people who know me well
they know that i don't like to explain
if you do not know this....
i tell you now......

i treat everyone the same...
you might think that i treat you like treating a ball
got problems will find you
no problems...bye...get out from my life...
i am not those kind of people....
but who can really understand that
actually college life is not that free or easy....

today
finally finished
macroeconomics' coursework
what can i said for that??
one word can explain all...
DIE...
just cannot imagine what will i get for this
pass or fail??
afraid to think of it...
i think is time for me to start study...
wanna go back to my old life in order to get better results...
gambateh to all of my friends who start preparing for final exam...

tagged by David

i tag
1:kelven
2:pit ling
3:su jean
4:woon yee
5:shi min
6:shirley
7:hong thong

How you know 1?
from church,shalom fellowship since 2006

What would you do if you never meet 2?
will try my best to find out who is that person

What would you do if 3&4 dated you?
erm....i don't think they will date me...because they will dated "someone"

Would 5&6 make a good couple?
erm...nO....

Do you think 4 is attractive?
she is sexy....haha...

Do you know anything about 1's family?
yes....he have father,mother,sister ,brother

Tell me something about 7?
She is a good solver to settle down all those chasing problem

What language does 2 speaks?
mandarin

Who is 3 going out with?
curry chicken

How old is 5?
same as me..

When was the last time u talk to 1?
i think one week before today

Who is 6's favorite singer?
i don't know T.T

Would you date 7?
i think so because she look busy than me

6 single?
i guess so..

What is 5's last name?
min

Would you consider being in a relationship with 1?
NO!!!!! the answer is definitely no

Which school does 2 goes to?
Tunku Abdul Rahman College..

What do you like about 3?
always in blur situation....

cHrIsTmAs cEl3bRatIoN

there is a Christmas celebrate at Kuala Lumpur International Hotel.....
on Christmas eve that night....
happy...
and i am waiting that day to come...
do not know why...
Christmas bring some special of feeling to me...
but on Christmas that itself got no planned on how to celebrate
because i no more in kuantan this Christmas...
therefore got no plan
besides,
KL here sure got lots of people whenever we go especially on Christmas
so...
stay at home better right??

just feel like soon will having boring Christmas
somehow,
he know i did not go back kuantan
and he planned to celebrate with me...
happy to hear that...
at least he come to celebrate with me...
his caring just touch me lots
i know thanks cannot replace everything that he did
somehow,
still need to say thanks right??
this mean that i really appreciate what you did for me since the beginning until now...

yEs oR nO

actually i planned so long that i am going back on Christmas that day
i thought i can celebrate at my home church...
but when i called back
they celebrate on Christmas eve
so it seem like i cannot join them
because my class end at 6pm
even when i rush back,
the event just will end once i reached
so...
no going back this Christmas.....
i told my friends that i going back
and now not going back,
and miss those gathering again
owh.........
and of cause miss the chance that can talk with my friends...
sorry......my friends........

this time is my first time not going back home for 2months over.......
if my parent did not came KL
i think i will only have chance next year....

this few days keep on getting call from my mum and sister about staying problems
there is very troublesome when we got no house at KL
staying at others' house is like troublesome and also not that good....
i keep on thinking those problems that happened.....
i really cannot think of better way to solve it...
so...
the conclusion is they will stay with me when they come to KL....

fInaLlY fInIshEd

today is the last day for us to join curriculum
finally.....
i been joining tennis around 8 weeks
learned a lots of things...
of course tennis consider a new sport for me too....
quite tiring but really fun........

i am late for curriculum day
do not know why i just don't feeling well....
since last night until this morning...
luckily,
he is there when i really sick.....
he take care me yesterday night....
i think he whole night don't sleep well.....
thanks....

somehow
finally finished curriculum for this semester..
i can start to focus in my studied now....
must pass all the subject for this semester......
this is my aim............

lIf3

today
right after class
me and Ivan to KLCC
just to buy something
i thought i might spend much times in it
but out of my expectation
finished everything before 1pm
super fast right??

after when we reached home,
Ivan and me started to discuss those misunderstanding happened between us....
he told me a lots of things
his opinion
his comment....
most of them is about things that happened in our life
and so on
somehow some of our opinion just different....
think differently
maybe i might accept what he said
but i think i still have my own opinion
is hard for me to change
because this is my original opinion
right??
i think you sure will understand it...

lEaRnEd

these two days i really learned a lots of things...
inside and also outside...
really increase my faith...
we a re like onion...
in order to cook onion...
its skin must be wiped off one by one and its take time
because we might stop in the middle...
and as we know,wiped off onion's skin is very hard to control tears not to flow out...
right??
it is same as us,human....
we got lots of hurt and bitterness in our heart
in order to wiped it off from our heart
its really take times....
we might cry in the middle of 'wiping off'
but i believe in one day...
all the hurts and bitterness will be wiping off...
just by faith...

sometimes
i might have negative thinking about myself like i am not good ,i am not as pretty as other girl
i am not as smart as other girl...and so on
but after the classes within these few days
i know in God's eye i am perfect because is HE created me...
He created me with purpose...
i really understand finally...

there is lots of opinion about friends in my chat box...
really thanks lots for all the comment or opinion...
maybe different peoples have different view about friends...
wanna thanks that you all still remembered me...
friends are really all around me but i will fell lonely when i am in troubles
when i have problems...
at that moment,
i really thought of i got no friends at all....
there is why i also settle down all my problems myself without telling friends...
somehow,
just thanks that you all still there be with me
i think i will change my opinion about friends....

to my friend,Emily...
maybe at this moment
you still cannot get any best friend or friends that you can tell your problems to...
maybe you are tired with it...
but i am still here with you...
maybe you didn't realized that actually i always viewing your blog to know how are you all that.........
wanna know how's life when you went back kuantan...
when read through your blog
feel that you are so depressed like me...
but now i am totally good
i find the way to walk out...
i hope you too..........
maybe what i said now is wrong...
somehow i still there with you
always love and miss you...