sHoCk

i feel shock when hearing the news from my best friend,pit ling
early in the morning
before went for church,
pit ling went into my room and start telling me everything
i really shock of it
is like so fake
but actually it is true...
not fake...
so unbelievable
may God bless her in everything
no matter what she did will just following God's footstep
hope this is from God's view but not by her own view....

pit ling,
God bless you....

cOmInG

today
two of my friends coming to KL
they are from kuantan
happy to meet them
but we seem strange when we meet each others...
we like do not know each others well...
quite disappointed with that...
i thought we still can stay together and talking like last time
but everything was changed....

before we take dinner together...
pit ling,Ivan and me when shopping again...
as usual...
spending time there
we also went for 'one life'
is really nice...
i really like fall into their situation...
i got negative in HIV/AIDS
but pit ling and Ivan got positive in HIV/AIDS
hehez....
finally i learned something after 'one life's program

Jas,pIt lInG aNd iVan's Hands....

around 7pm
we rush for that dinner
i thought we are late
but somehow,
still got late comers
i do not have chances to have conversation with them
hope i still have chance to meet them and start crapping ....

ThAnK yOu aNd SoRrY

thank you and sorry are the simplest word...
but it is hard for us to say it out....
why??
some of us shy to said it out...
some of us think that say these two words are very shameful...
do you ever know that this two simple word can touch people's heart or even show how much you appreciate what they did for you...

do not let other reasons to block you from saying these two words out from your mouth...
do not think that the person will know you will said so to them,even though you did not say it out
maybe some of my friends think that it is not necessary to say thanks and sorry
but i think these two words are important....

say too much of it will not affect anything from you....
therefore,
start from today onward
practice saying thanks and sorry....

uNlUcKiLy daY

today my class started at 8am....
i had set my plenty of alarm to 6.30am
so that i can prepared myself earlier...
but....
maybe too tired..
i wake up at 7.15am....
when i saw my clock showing 7.15am
i wake up in advance and prepared myself quickly....
and yet i can finished preparing at 7.30am....
then,
i still late
because this morning,
the lift broke down
so,
my housemate and me walked from floor 7 until car park b2
add together 9 floors...
really a good exercise early in the morning....

finally finished BISA test....
feel more relaxing
not that stress
not sure can pass or not
hope can pass it....

just wanna thanks all of our friends for your caring and supporting....
the operation for today very good....
thanks that keep on asking how was it....
and thanks for your prayer....
finally,
something is settle down right now....

is sad that when my friends left me one by one....
i really don't like the feeling of leaving
i can get this feeling
when after i finished my studied in primary school....
although still in the same hometown
but still miss them
then leaving after form 5....
everyone going to different places to continues their studies....
is hard to meet them...
everyone got different holidays....
everyone look busy
include me myself....
super miss my friends there is leaving last time and now....

sUpEr.................

today..

us again....pit ling,Ivan and me

take dinner at Pizza Hut....

is fun also....

after we finished order Pizza,

the waiter just double confirmed with us 

is it true for the order.....

because only 3 of us

and we had order 3 regular Pizza

then 2 mushroom soup,coke and bread......

the waiter just get shock of it...

but we really can finished it....

are we super good in eating???

hehez....

raining almost half of the day....

we used almost half an hour only can get taxi.....

with quite a lots of stuff together....

but is good...

because i can enjoy myself in the presence of rain

fIsH???

what is fish??

not the fish that we can get in the sea or any other places.....

is so called embarrassing....

today pit ling , Ivan and me went to KLCC.....

before this

we planned to go Canaan Land

but unfortunately...

is off.....

we manage to walked a few round in the book store....

then we planned to go another bookstore

something 'fish' happened....

i saw someone walked out from the bookstore and almost knock on the door....

he thought it was the electronic door....

but actually the door is just beside that "electronic door"

we almost smiled whole day for that incident....

later on

we watched wushu before went home

is nice...

still ok....

waiting for more movie coming out soon.....

lIfE

i really can learned in discipleship programme ....
learned a lots of things
i found out that the story or testimony was touching....
talking how a girl helped her friend and she herself get caught...
and ran through all the tough life....
compared to me...
mine was much more easy...

what is life???
i keep on asking myself this question....
is this a hard question???
maybe yes
maybe no

when i thought back last time,
i am those selfish person
i won care what happen in this world
or even what happened in you....
but i found that i start to change
i start to care about others
i start to asked how are you....
more often compared to last time
but is this the right way changing to more caring??
or is just bringing me more problem??
cant answer for it....

i feel is a bit of tough in the subject that i learned in this semester....
feel that getting tougher ,tougher and tougher....
got limit time....
the time that i spend with God getting lesser and lesser...
but i am happy that He still be with me...
renew my soul
refresh my mind as well
when i really meet problem....
i can remembered he told us that
*the LORD gives strength to His people,the LORD blessed his people with peace* which state in Psalm 29:11
always remember this verse...

NeXt sAtuRday

CHRISTMAS CELEBRATION

Date : 29th of November
Venue :CPC
Time:8pm

for more information
please refer to

*www.highergroundunited.blogspot.com*

FriEnDs-pArT 2

Besides my best friends ,
i still remembered other friends that appear in my life.....

my housemate who stay with me and know me for more than 8 years
yeow,
thanks sometimes for your advice....
helping me very much also...
take care of me also...
thanks
just wanna tell you that....
do not just have one opinion...
there is a lots of choices in your life....
other choices might be good also
think of it also...

Shirley Turn,
i miss you so much
since few months ago
i got no news from you anymore....
how are you??
hope to see you soon....

my MC4clanz friends,
hou,su yen,chia yien,thong,hon lin,jing ying,shi min,su jean,wei,shirley lim,wong....
miss you all so much
i know
everytime of yc
i sure will not appear...
i promised next yc i will appear
so that i also got time to talk with you all
have no idea how are you all....
still ok??
miss ya....

my super old friends,
jonathan,bih yar,chin song,chin shu ying,yee yin,low shu ying,zhi heng,soon keat...
i think that's all
hope din miss out someone....
sometimes i really miss the time that we go yc together....
although i did not joined all the badminton activity
but at least i still got go yc right???
hehez....
will let you all know soon
when i am going back

Higher Ground's friends,
you know who you are.....
so long din join HG....
hope the next time going back
can join it again...

my coursemate,
woon yee,choon peng,jackson,tick keat,yi san,and so on....
thanks for helping me in everything
maybe i am cool sometimes
but i am active also...
thanks for helping me in some of the assignment like bm...

my close friend,
Ivan
thanks for helping me so much
take care of me also
i will appreaciate it
thanks again
i know you dont like it
but once last time...ok???

my good friend,
choong min
thanks for giving me support
thanks for teaching me so many things also...
thanks a lots
thanks for your word of encouragement....

thanks for what you all had done for me...
thanks....
miss ya...
sorry if i din mentioned you
let me know ya...
i scare i have forgotten you...
just as you all know i am blur sometimes right??
hehez....

FriEnDs

i know there is a lots of things happened in 5 of us....
really a lots...
arguments
happiness
sadness
misunderstanding
but i really miss the time that we spend together as best friend....
as Kelven said.....
he still miss the time that we yc together....
to my friend,
Pit Ling,
you did a lots things for me....
too much until i cant count it out
i appreciate what you did for me...
thanks....
i think is time for me to solve my problem by myself....
somehow just thanks...

Jared,
as you know,
you are my special friend...
you also did a lots of things for me...
take care of me
spending time,money on me
share my problems...
really thanks....
i hope you will forgive what i did
and hope that i still can be your best friend
share our problems together....
miss the time we are best friend...
somehow thanks....

David,
long lost David....
so long i have not been hearing from you...
do not know whether you are good or bad....
just wanna ask whether you are ok or not...
maybe my previous careness is not suitable and not enough for you
but hope you still understand what i did...
i apologize for what i had did...
sorry and thanks

Kelven,
you always look happy and funny in our group...
but now you seem like got lots of problems....
so long did not see you...
how was you there??
last night i only start to know you got lots of problems...
too slow only get the news right??
just commit everything to God
he know what you need
as you write in your blog....
He understand and solve all the problems
He so mighty....
nothing is impossible for him right???

miss you guys very much...
when is the next time that we can gather together again???
next year???
or coming Christmas??
let me know -_-v

stIlL tIr3d

first of all....
wanna wish

HAPPY BIRTHDAY
to DAVID
may God bless you in everything

still tired all the day...
i feel like the time is not enough...
24 hours per day is too little
still got lots of things haven done....
do not know wanna finish which first...
my day start from 8.30am till 10.55pm.....
is almost using up my half of my day...
really miss the time that i can spend my time doing things that i like...

today just went for discipleship problem...
really learned a lots of things that i do not know.....
spiritual things,reaching to people....and so on....
although is tired....but i just want to thanks God that He still give me the strength...

i just got the news that Higher Ground is going to have Christmas celebration soon....
unfortunately,i cant join it....
my schedule is totally pack with things....

suddenly a lots of things come into my thought....
sometimes,i just feel that i am useless in some thing
useless in making decision
i afraid that wrong decision will be made....
that is why,
sometimes i do not make decision
but who can understand me??
this time i really feel hard to express my feeling
and i cant even have idea in how to advice people....
i realized that human like to stay in their own world when they meet problems
they just cant walk out from it...
i know sometimes is hard
is hard to let go something
but is it really important??
just ask yourselves what is important in your life....
money???
love???
friends???
study??
good result???
better job???
do not get influence by the world...
be yourselves
and try to think what you need in your life
something thing might look like important in your life....
but do u really thought of it ??
human's heart is hard to guess....
thinking too much might get me into confusion....
my life began complicated when getting older...
i do not know what to do sometimes...
is this the testing that given by God to me???
He planned something for me??
just feel like want to know it...
but time is the one that can prove everything to me....

tired is the last word i can said.....
TIRED

fOrTunAte or uNfOrtUnaTe

today just finished my bm presentation....
more relaxing now....
but the presentation is looked like last minute work....
somehow finished presented it...
since last time i am still wondering how am i looking when wearing skirt to college...
ugly??
super ugly???
but finally the shameful time passed...
finished presented and no more skirt in college....
happy....

annual general meeting for international business society was held today....
i thought i just went there for ATTENDANCE and also sleeping....
i thought there is no relation with me
and feel like going back to the second day of orientation....
really look alike...
time passed very fast....
now is the second semester
today is annual general meeting and not orientation anymore
do not know wanna take is a fortunate thing or not...
i got the post as treasurer for this society....
is one of the plan for me also...
i got no confident and do not know anything bout this post....
treasurer is a common post
but i do not know how its work in this society....
i think i can only try my best doing it....

tireD

today is a tired day....
i din sleep for more than few hours
and i only slept at this morning 6.30am....
and woke up at 9 something...
fantastic???
i think is more to crazy...
i thought after few hours later,
my energy will be using up
thank God....
until this moment i still quite active
QUITE active....
just went back from farewell party....
for others,
maybe is totally no more energy
but God still provide me with His strength so that i can finished all my work for presentation....
i am still thinking what will happen tomorrow
because tomorrow will be my first time wearing formal skirt to college....
i feel shameful for that....
hope tomorrow will be my first time wearing that and will be my last time wearing that also...

m3mOrAbLe sUnday-part 2

today service end quite early....
quite a lot of things happened this Sunday....
i really cried out when i hug pastor Sharon...
i really both of them a lots
although i just knew them for around half a year....
but i had a deep feeling in them....
they are my second spiritual father and mother...
is like when i met problem,
i do not even said out
they will just knew it....
they are so caring and loving
they always prayed for me when i really needed prayer....
really miss them....
i know what pastor said is true....
this is temporary earth for us to stay in...
we should rejoice for them
because they are following God's footstep...

after service,
we went for movie again....
do u think that we are rich???
no la....is just to relax ourselves
after movie is around 11pm....
we rush for monorel and lrt...
unfortunately,
we miss them....
the lrt's station was closed.....
what can we do???
went back to monorel's station then go back by taxi...
first time watched movie until that late
and just 3 of us....
yeow , Ivan and me....
is fun....

rUshInG

these two days keep on rushing for bm assignment....
too many things haven do....
a lots of information haven search....
is like huge work....
haiz.....
i am so blur doing it....
i totally got no idea in doing it....
really do not know what to do....
blank in my mind....
who can help me??
really need help
and this assignment need to pass up by coming Tuesday..

sTorY

i realized that our life full of stories....
everything that i had experience is all my stories...
all these stories is all include us....
behind us,
sure got some stories which are so memorable...
sometimes joke down all the stories are fun
because when we looked back
it is so 'cute' that we will did so....
do not ignore the old stories....
you might be surprised that all these are God wants to teach you through them...
so...
stories from the past can give us pointers for the present...

fInIsHeD

finally,
today i had finished QS's coursework...
feel more relaxing
but still cannot take a deep breath
because my economies really bad...
i afraid that i cannot catch up this semester...
i think i should spend more time in studying

besides,
i had finished my tennis's test this morning...
not that good...
still cannot play well.
i think i should practiced more to improve myself....

my friend called me this noon...
he told me what happen this few months in kuantan...
he want me to visit his new shop
i feel shock when he called me just to talk to me...
so long have not been hearing from him...
and i miss his sister too...
can consider as my best friend also...
hope to meet her soon...

tOmOrRoW

tomorrow is my quantities studied's test...
scare and afraid of it
my expectation for this subject is super high....
maybe is because have too high expectation,
i afraid that once it cannot reach what i expect...
i will really disappointed...
afraid of {disappointed} this word...
is a bad word that always come to me
so...
what i learned from every mistake...
is that we cannot put out hope into something....
i mean a little of hope can
but not too much....

i thought choir will come into my life again...
because teacher request me to help her again...
but actually i feel that
i am not that important if she really don't have me..
although i am there,
i still feel that she don't need me...

this noon until evening
i spend most of my time in library....
studying???
i don't this so...
talking???
yaya....
somehow,
after talking and told all my problems
it really relaxing...
a lots of secret kept inside of my heart...
i do not know who to tell and who can really understand me
but this noon...
i make it....
hoo.....
relax...
thanks for listening...

just now,
i took dinner with my parent...
they ordered all my beloved food....
they really love me...
thanks...

sPeaK oUt

sometimes i just wondering whether wanna speak out or tell out all my problems or not....
is hard...
can consider hard...
because until i still cannot get someone that really can solve all my problems except Him...
i really hope that i can get someone that can understand me well
and i do not need to speak out
and he or she know it...
i think is super hard...
who can did so??
unless the person really understand me..
speak or tell out everything really need a lots of braveness ...
if not,
cannot do so easily..

sometimes,
i feel that apologize or say some important words in front of me is important..
words like sorry,thanks and so on
are precious to me...
using other tool to say it is too fake...
only come out from is true and sincere...
because what your mouth speak is come out from your heart...

some hurting's words that speak out by people is really bad...
is hard to control ourselves from saying those words...
but as human...
we sometimes will still do it..
words cannot kill people but it will forever put deep into our heart...
maybe you might not realized that you are speaking those hurting words
but you still do it...

words??
should speak out or not??
hard question right??

gOoD oR bAd

one good news and one bad news for today...
good news is no more accounting class at 6pm until 8pm...
bad news is the class change to morning class,from 9am until 11am...
wow....
Monday our class start at 10am
Tuesday class start at 8am
Wednesday curriculum at 8.30am
Thursday class at 9am...
luckily Friday until Sunday are holidays...
but still need to get up early and end quite late also...
somehow...
teenagers should wake up more early right??

today,
my mum called me up again...
she tole me that they are going to leave KL by this noon..
but when dinner time,
they came to my house and visited me...
nice and sweet right??
they will be going back by tomorrow..
pray that all the angels will protect them....

these few days really feel tired...
really tired
but once i feel tired...
the same verse always come into my mind...
and remind me that He will gives me strength
i still waiting for His confirmation...
something really need me to wait for a long long time...
don't know whether my prayer is answered by Him or not...
just wanna know it quickly...

just now i saw something really make me feel disappointed...
am i really bad??
my language really bad??
my attitude really bad??
am i??
am i??
am i??
no one can really answer me...
now,
cannot think too much on this question
because i had promised someone not to think too much
beside,
this question is not important anymore
somehow...
tomorrow still will come....
waiting for a new day....

SundAy

today...
feel tired but happy
wake up earlier for church
today message is about the position of our heart and mind
this message is like spoken to me...
speak into my heart...
i know what shall i do now
pray hard is the only...
no matter in what aspect....
life partner...studies...relationship between friends or everything...
i will just pray and wait for God's answer...
i know maybe some of you won do that...
but i think this is the best way to do so...
at least i won fall into wrong step
and pastor keep on saying that...
His view is wide and we cannot expect or guess it...
because our view is very shortening...
what He told us,we might not know now...
but soon we will know it...

after praise and celebration,
Ivan and me went for movie...
not that nice....half boring...half interesting...
so...
my advice is better don't watch...

after movie,
we rushed to my aunt's house...
my parent is coming down to KL again...
nice to see them again...
my mum brought a lots of foods for me
is like one month harvesting...
haha..
somehow i should appreciate it very much
cause is all done by my mum who using so much time in it...
thanks...

whOle dAy

today.....
7th of November 2008
just pass quickly by just doing nothing whole day
after woke up...
my friend came to visit as usual
after lunch...
i just spend my time by watching movie...
and doing nothing else...
cannot imagine this is me,jasmine
because i seldom spend my time by just watching movie half of the day...
really not like the old jasmine...
really miss the old jasmine
who can firm in studying and will not waste her time by watching movie...

after dinner...
pit ling and me visited yeow at hospital...
she looked more better than yesterday...
is good...
hope she will get well soon...

tagged by MiNmIn

what was the happiest thing in your whole life?
*have many people that take care of me like my family,friends and also God...hehez

what do you wish to have right now?
*everything i need

when was the last time you HoUrse Laugh??
*cant remember ler

what do you realize recently?
*i realized a lot of things that i cannot imagine it

which bad habit of you that is most unacceptable?
*maybe biting fingernails...and of course still got la...

when you're unhappy what will you do?
*sleep and eat...so that can get fat at the same time

what are you afraid of losing?
*everything that i have now...

within 5 years,which target is the most realistic one?
-i think helping those needed people...maybe..

when you met someone you like,will you confess or hide your feelings?
*of course hide it...cannot let him know

list out 3 kind of persons that you hate the most?
*i think until this moment i haven meet those bad kind of people yet..

define loneliness
*alone

are you satisfied with your life now??
*i can say it con firmly yes...

when is the most recent time you felt touched?
*when i need help that time,those one who let me a helping hand i sure get touched

where is the most beautiful place that you have visited?
*haven got that chance to visit to those beautiful place yet...i think the most beautiful place that
i ever visit is my room...haha

a song that is playing in your mind recently??
*there is a lots

if you have a wish come true,what is it?
*then i wish all my wish come true...

do you have anything to worried or scared recently?
*sure....a lots...until not manage to say it...

if the world is going to end,what will you do?
*do something that you cannot guess of it...

who are you thinking of right now?
*everyone that i know

dIsSapOintEd??

today,
two of my best friends sms me
and called me read someone's blog
after reading that blog
really feel disappointed
because this is how he look at pit ling and me...
and disappointed that all that is coming out from his mouth...
such as who cares...
what so called 'best friend'
and you are testing us by saying don't friend with us
yup...
you can be kid but remember do not do it too OVER...
you are taking our friendship to play and testing on it...
maybe you are saying us wrong in such way treating you
but have you ever think it in other way???
you are saying us that just using mouth to say you are our best friend but not doing it...
but have you think carefully that we really did that??
we din sms you but do you sms us???
do not blame others for not doing that and this
but think of ourselves before we point it to others...
remember...
when you pointing at people...
one finger is pointing others but three fingers are pointing back to ourselves...

today still feel tired
do not know whether is too busy with everything or fall sick...
whole day feel like no energy...
luckily...i can spend my rest time by going to my friend's house which is near by college to sleep
if not....
i cannot imagine whether can concentrate in the class or not...

yeow admitted to hospital this morning...
pray that she will get well soon...

cAnCeL agAiN??

today my class end at 6pm
normally it end at 6pm
but today account class replace it at 6pm until 8pm
we reach there on time
we had been waiting for one hour
and yet teacher not there yet at 7.15pm...
then,most of us decided to leave the class...
left few persons in that class...

today
really tired
i got tennis practice at 8.30am
then,7.30pm only reach home..
is like whole in college
and college is my first home
either class end very late
or class start early...
super tired...
got no time to have a sweet dream
tomorrow got account's coursework...
tonight need to study for that also...

what can i do??
help me.........................

tIrED

today
i have finished my economics' coursework...
20% of my stress is releasing now...
but still feel tired
wanna say thank you to my friend again who go bus station with me to return back bus ticket
thank you again
not going back Kuantan this week...
but my parent is coming down this weekends...
my mum and grandmother are going to prepared lots of my favorite foods for me
feel happy...

feel tired because this two weeks just keep on walking and rushing for everything...
but i really wanna thank God because He send a lots of people around me to take care of me
my friends...
they do not feel troublesome when going out or stay with me
i know nothing
i do not know how to cross the road..
i do not know how to cook and all that
i always blur in every area...
but they still take care of me
they did not complaint anything
really feel touch sometimes and also thanks God who so care for me...
money that i owe can be returned back to them
but...
friendship
care
happiness
sadness
relationship
feeling
and so on...
forever i cannot return it back to my friends...
really cannot
because all these cannot measured by just paying back nothing
so...
wanna say thanks to all of my friends who so take care of me...

fiNisH

finally...
i had finish my presentation for English
i have been prepared for so long
and now finally finished..
feel like less stress now...
maybe 1% of stress has been released...
no matter how tired also...
i still need to do it...
tomorrow still got economics' coursework
Thursday got accounting's coursework
suddenly feel like time pass really fast
in between really happened a lots of things which i cannot control it
and i cannot avoid it to happen
i can only pass all my day by just following what God want me to do...
i am still thinking and wondering whether the image that appear in my mind and thought is the view that given by God or i just think too much...
hope i will know it soon

Compassion Art

Try to watch this video, is about the coming album Compassion Art.
-Jared

m3mOrAbLe sUnday

today
after church
three of us + ah yeow went to KLCC shopping again...
Jared's coming really bring me a relaxing life
because two days i had not been study
although coursework is just two days after today...
soon....
but it is really happy to see him when he came to visit me...

we watch movie again...
wow....
in one week time,
we watched three movies...
and almost half of a week eating fast food...
getting fatter and fatter...
but still happy...
today Jared is going back...
hope to see him soon...

today
can considered as a memorable Sunday
because we are coming back to our condo
heavy rain and thunder..
we just walked back home without using an umbrella
our whole body wet
is like bathing...
and the wind is really big until we cannot support our own body
is like going to fly away
so long have not been doing this...
is fun although it seem easy to get sick...

tomorrow is my presentation
finish prepared
but still afraid
pray that i can just speak out like when i am saying God's gospel..
although is different
but i know i should not afraid
because He is at my side to support me

cOmInG

today,
my best friend came to KL...
my class start at 8am today...
after class i try my best to rush back to home
because i do not want my friend came here and just nothing
and is like left a guest at house...
the important thing is he is not my GUEST,
he is my BEST FRIEND...

right after class...
Jared,Pit ling and me went for shopping...
at first,
we went to sungai wang
then,we go pavillion
after that we went to Jusco
wow...
whole day walking
tired...but happy...
we went for movie : Bangkok Dangerous
and eat for whole day without buying anything...

almost 11pm,
we only reached home
then,
is time to start chatting and making fun...
i mean our time...although David and Kelven not there with us...
we talked a lots and share anything that keep in our heart...
and we organized a club called "blur club"
three of us are blur...
normally Jared not that blur but today he really blur..
maybe he joined me too much...
agree???
hehez...
and i am happy that finally i have chance to talked with him face to face about all the problems...
i know i am wrong in such way but hope you(you know who you are)can forgive me
i pray that everything will be fine...