i think the goal for this moment is pass all the exam paper..
well...
few more days to final exam..
preparation?? no
study?? not really...
understand of the subject?? totally not...
and yet exam is nearer..
this was the first time i really did lots of last minutes work
for example in my assignment and now...exam...
am i too relax previously and now cannot catch up everything...
i really do not know whether i am in stress or not
because i look like not really stress
but i am afraid of it...
in the first day of this semester
i thought off wanna get good result which is much more better than preciously...
but it seems like impossible...

i think i had made a wrong decision on something...
i really hope all will just be settle in A TIME...

sometimes i just wondering of myself
what is the big deal when you just have a small little illnesses such as gastric, cough and so on...
and you really look at it as a serious illnesses where you show and tell others that you are weak
compare to those who fight for their lives with illnesses in order to live...you weak or they weak??
when i read the magazines
really jealous of them..
where they still laugh and smile always
and also THEY DON'T THINK IT WAS A BIG DEAL...
and
what is the big deal when you just get 'kick' by your boyfriend or girlfriend??
is this is main purpose of your life??
and
what is the big deal when you just losses everything on earth??
you still have the loves supporting you...
there is lots of things in this world that are so important to us...
where i think i would not stay with the problem until i die...