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i just passed this few days with ivan...
feel like comfortable
because he know what i am thinking and
i do not need to explain what am i doing for all the moment...
people looking at me just feel that i change my attitudes to bad or even worst...
but who can understand the real reasons that i did all this??
only guessing fall on their mind which are so incorrect from mine...

most probably,
we spend much times in eating...
only he will bring me to eat all those different kinds of foods...
we are eating steamboat buffer last Saturday...
wow....
me and him eating 7 scope of ice cream per person..
around 4 plates of different kinds of foods like taufu,eggs....so on...
then,
he is eating almost 2 plates of 'lala'
after taking this dinner,
i think i need to spend around 1 months to keep fit....
T.T

the second problem is shifting problem
the agreement for this current house is going to finish
and now
the problems comes...
where am i going to shift to??
how to get housemates is the main problem..
a good housemate is hard to get...
a understandable housemate is hard to get too...
people can always say yes to you
and last minutes they will just said no...
people who are not in the situation will not understand this...
because human like us are selfishness
we will always put the priority on ourselves before others
right??
i think maybe there are 2%is excepted for this statement
but conclusion is still the same "human are selfishness..."
somehow pray everything will be fine
and will not get worst like previously

the last problem
this is hard to express out to people even friends...
only HE, and ivan know about it...
although there is lots evidence showing me that nothing will happened
but the feeling of afraid will just come to me
but thank God
He is there with me and talking to me too...
and Ivan is also there with me all the times
advice is always given by him...
somehow
pray that the problems that i met now
will just solve easily...