mOvIng

as time moving in this world
everyone was just keep on changing...
when my attention moving back to the people that stay around me...
i realized that everyone have their own ways to walk to...
everyone have their plans for the life...
everything was so different now...
is like everything was totally change...

and i really understand and realized it that
sometimes is hard to find someone that you really trust with to talk about everything
even the close one...
the thing that i totally agree with is
the closer the one that you have,
the easier you get hurt bu that person
right??
those close friends is the easier to hurt our heart...
people will always finding the weaknesses and the mistake that others' did
but not the good part...
somehow
only GOD will remember the good that we forget....

finally...
i had finished one coursework
the result still consider medium
is not what i want
maybe my expectation for something too high
maybe
but good right??
at least i have some goals in my mind...
this semester is a tiring semester
everything was so rushed
seldom have time to have a well rest
somehow
thank Abba for everything that He had prepared for me

nowadays
i feel like getting harder and harder to stand up and SPEAK
that is a lots of things kept inside my heart since i realized it...
but i cannot speak it out
because of the close relationship like the friends i know since long ago...
is hard
no matter how
what i did now is just following others' opinion
is not my own opinion anymore...
it got no more jasmine's style now
because watching people face expression is much more harder than going what i want...
because those unhappiness from others' will just lead me to follow them...
i hope there is one day in my life that i can decide something that is agree by everyone...