thiNkiNg

is important that we as a human think of others...
not to self-centered...
most of us really did not think of others
we just wanna people follow us
follow our needs
follow our wants
do you really think of others??
they have their wants and needs too...
the better way is think of others and also ourselves
not too self-centered

oFf lIgHT

wow....
most of the units in our condo is closing all their light
and support tat activity
amazing....

28/3

today just went to pastor's wedding
wake up quite late this morning
because i slept at 6 something in the morning...
then,wake up at 9 something
then
rushing
first time wearing dress walking here and there
quite troublesome
somehow
will be the last i think
hope won have chance to wear dress anymore...

me and yeow...

hApPy

yesterday
we really spend lots of time talking to each others
everything was finished spoke to you
and this is the first time i know lots of your feeling...
really know it
because before this
you seldom speak out your feeling to me
but yesterday you really tell out everything
i feel happy when i know the secret and feeling from you...
especially things that you kept deep inside your heart...
and i also know that you super care for me
when i know you also treat me as half of your ....
really happy
i thought also only me have that kind of thought
i know that you are those looking forward but not the things that you unpredictable
and this time
is the first time knowing that you have the thought too
super impossible for me...
somehow
feel more relaxing after have a talk with you
everything was express out...
this whole week is a terrible week for me
there is lots of things happened...
fearfulness
sadness
coursework
nose bleeding
and so on...
i believe that God will there with me
provide me with the strength to passed my life....

mOvIng

as time moving in this world
everyone was just keep on changing...
when my attention moving back to the people that stay around me...
i realized that everyone have their own ways to walk to...
everyone have their plans for the life...
everything was so different now...
is like everything was totally change...

and i really understand and realized it that
sometimes is hard to find someone that you really trust with to talk about everything
even the close one...
the thing that i totally agree with is
the closer the one that you have,
the easier you get hurt bu that person
right??
those close friends is the easier to hurt our heart...
people will always finding the weaknesses and the mistake that others' did
but not the good part...
somehow
only GOD will remember the good that we forget....

finally...
i had finished one coursework
the result still consider medium
is not what i want
maybe my expectation for something too high
maybe
but good right??
at least i have some goals in my mind...
this semester is a tiring semester
everything was so rushed
seldom have time to have a well rest
somehow
thank Abba for everything that He had prepared for me

nowadays
i feel like getting harder and harder to stand up and SPEAK
that is a lots of things kept inside my heart since i realized it...
but i cannot speak it out
because of the close relationship like the friends i know since long ago...
is hard
no matter how
what i did now is just following others' opinion
is not my own opinion anymore...
it got no more jasmine's style now
because watching people face expression is much more harder than going what i want...
because those unhappiness from others' will just lead me to follow them...
i hope there is one day in my life that i can decide something that is agree by everyone...

CarE

i do not sleep well
nose bleeding for at least one hour...
waste lots of tissue
thanks God that He has send someone to me
although he is not staying beside me
but his care still reach to me...
action like continuing calling me is better than ten thousand words...

aFraiD

these few days
something have been putting in my mind for quite long
i received some terrible email from my friends...
i really get a shock
totally shock...

today

Ivan and me went for steamboat buffer again

eat quite lots

is worth too...

^.^v

getting fatter and fatter

my plan for keep fit is going to fail 

T.T

He had answered my prayer

everything was settle down

Thanks Abba

dEep iNsIdE...

sometimes
especially these few days
really feel a bit stress
i feel like i am left out the syllabus that all the lecturer's teaching
i am keep on rushing rushing and rushing
the first thing that come into my mind is RUSH for it
all the presentation
coursework which is coming soon
tutorial works
understand what i do not understand
lots...
although is short semester
but everything was too rush...
today
do not know why
easily get angry
i have lots of things that is going to tell someone
but finally all the words was swallow back...
do not know who can talk to
hard to get someone that is really can talk to
although there is always someone there
but......
is hard...

thank Abba Father that He really hear my prayer
He has bring me through everything that i find it hard to accept in their opinion
i really feel unfair of saying that
i everyone really thought what i get is hard
but thank God...is not
is totally different...
i manage to finish it in one day
and within this one day
He is giving me strength to continue
can u imagine someone that is not eating for one whole day
and lack of sleeping still have energy to do their work??

do not why
still have some indescribable that still keep deeply in my heart
all the problems and stress really influences me lots
crying for few nights for this
just to release it
but is hard too...

at the same times
when i realized my words toward him is so harsh
i really feel sorry and really do not know what to do at that moment
my mind was totally blank
headache...

i think is time for me to take a break by relaxing my mind for not thinking anything...
maybe one movie or one song
or even 'one day trip' in a shopping mall...

gO??

feel like wanna go for revolution
but...
time really rush
and everything was packed in one day
morning was pastor Jason and pastor jade's wedding
unless i rush back right after the wedding and coming back to KL on the next day
but is like quite.....

REVOLUTION

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saD

sad...
i lost my cute little shoe...
now...
just left one side....
T.T

i miss the sushi
i miss the sandwich
i miss this
i miss that
lots of things that i miss....

fiNisHeD

finally,
one presentation had been finished...
is tiring
but still cannot rest
because more and more work and presentation coming...
still left one for this week
the organization and human resource's presentation...
hope can finish it by tonight....
i wanna SLEEP!!!

pRoBlEmz

i just passed this few days with ivan...
feel like comfortable
because he know what i am thinking and
i do not need to explain what am i doing for all the moment...
people looking at me just feel that i change my attitudes to bad or even worst...
but who can understand the real reasons that i did all this??
only guessing fall on their mind which are so incorrect from mine...

most probably,
we spend much times in eating...
only he will bring me to eat all those different kinds of foods...
we are eating steamboat buffer last Saturday...
wow....
me and him eating 7 scope of ice cream per person..
around 4 plates of different kinds of foods like taufu,eggs....so on...
then,
he is eating almost 2 plates of 'lala'
after taking this dinner,
i think i need to spend around 1 months to keep fit....
T.T

the second problem is shifting problem
the agreement for this current house is going to finish
and now
the problems comes...
where am i going to shift to??
how to get housemates is the main problem..
a good housemate is hard to get...
a understandable housemate is hard to get too...
people can always say yes to you
and last minutes they will just said no...
people who are not in the situation will not understand this...
because human like us are selfishness
we will always put the priority on ourselves before others
right??
i think maybe there are 2%is excepted for this statement
but conclusion is still the same "human are selfishness..."
somehow pray everything will be fine
and will not get worst like previously

the last problem
this is hard to express out to people even friends...
only HE, and ivan know about it...
although there is lots evidence showing me that nothing will happened
but the feeling of afraid will just come to me
but thank God
He is there with me and talking to me too...
and Ivan is also there with me all the times
advice is always given by him...
somehow
pray that the problems that i met now
will just solve easily...

thInGZ

suddenly have lots of things just happened between my friends...
i really got no idea what happened now
i really feel confused in everything...
i can totally broke down IF this things happen on me...
although is not happen on me,
but is on my friend....
really cannot accept it...
i think he too...
somehow,
i think my prayer had been answer...
He has given me lots of evidence in telling what should i do next
somehow,
my worried still haven been solved...
i keep on asking myself that
what IF the same thing happened me
i think i will just faint
and do not what to do...
really do not know...
really got no idea
pray hard that this will not happened on me...
IF not,
i think i will have any plans for my future...
just pray that God will fall HIS mercy and grace in me
i think HE is only and only one that can answer and protect me...

pREsEnTaTiON

finally
i had finished ONE presentation...
now i am on the way moving to the end of this semester...
soon
i will just move in to second year...
time really can proved everything to me...
those things that cannot solve now
will be settle down soon
those who misunderstand me
will get the real answer soon

hApPeNz

a lots of things between me and the people around me...

do not know what is the real things is happening

i just know there is lots of problems appear...

me....??

still praying the same things to God...

wanna get the answer soon...

but i know i should not rush for the answer...

problems keep on appear in my life

some are challenge

some are simple and normal...

i really hate problems

but who can help me to avoid problems occur??

who really can help me think what i am afraid of or scared of??

who can reduce the problems happened from me??

those who really understand me

they knew that i seldom speak out my problems or point of view

there is because i not really want people understand my thinking...

somehow,

misunderstanding or all sorts will just occur

and this is normal

because we are human...

human will only understand when something is being explained...

i hope all my problems will just solved by HIM 

Happy Birthday

to

Vincent Turn

thiNkinG

finally...

i get to know my results...

although is quite bad for me

because it did not reach my expectation...

somehow

still passed all of it...

considered ok...

^.^v

these few day

i am thinking the same question again,again and again...

i do not know the answer

but i believe He know the answer...

until this moment,

i did not get any answer from Him...

although

i think He had spoken to me through prayer...

somehow

still afraid of it....

i know that noone could ever solve this question

except HIM...

no one could ever answer this question

except HIM....

i hope my prayer request could be answered as soon as possible...

shOpPinG

yesterday 

went to sg wang and time square just to find a nice dress...

but actually we suppose need to celebrated yeow's birthday..

but i did not join it...

sorry yeow...

you know i do not like to sing k,right???

somehow

walk most of the shops

and finally i got one dress...

very tired

by the way

my and ivan also watched street fighter...

quite nice

but is like too short...

finally,

i know my result for second semester...

still considered ok...

but is not what i want...

but still need to thanks God

because i passed all...

^.^v

anGrY

do not why today suddenly just angry of you...

do not know why...

i am asking myself too...

maybe i am too afraid of something

and i really who to speak to...

therefore,

i just angry of you...

sorry for it...

i really afraid of the question that i keep on asking you...

although your answer always the same

but i still do not believe it

unless it really happened...

sorry for not believing you

i am also not believing myself too

sometimes

i really keep on telling myself that really nothing happen

but fearfulness still appear in my heart...

funny right???

somehow afraid of final exam's result

i am going to know it soon

still left few hours and i can know it...

may God bless me in everything...

Amen...

rEsUlT

exam results going to release soon
afraid....
still left 2 more days to know it....

Happy birthday

to

ah yeoW

may all your dreams come true..

feELinG

i feel so uncomfortable this few days...
nothing happened in me
but i still feel it...
maybe i had did something that make me myself guilty
i really need Abba Father's peace
do not what will happened next
just hope everything go fined...

first,
i was dying to finish my high school
and start college
and then,
i was dying to finish college
and start working
then,
i was dying to marry and have children
and then,
i was dying for my children to grow old enough
so i could go back to work
but then,
i was dying to retire...
and now,
i am dying...
and suddenly i realized i forgot to live...

when i am knowing and hearing this...
i feel sad because we as a human
busy for this and that...
and yet we got nothing in the end...
so...
do not let this happen to you
appreciate your current situation and enjoy each day

nEw

starting the new semester...
time pass super fast
now is the third semester
is a short semester
i think soon i will be moving in to the 4th semester

the time table still ok....
is just the lecture was too bored...
i almost sleep in the lecture for every subjects...

What will YOU do if you just left
ONE MONTH time???

doing NOTHING??

keep on SLEEPING??

do MEANINGFUL thing???

SiCk

T.T
i sick badly
i almost sick for one whole month
still haven recover
and now seem like more serious....
more can recover soon...