coMinG bAcK

the third semester going to start soon
therefore
i am coming back to KL again

wOrkInG

i am helping my dad and mum in their business
means that
I AM WORKING!!!!

i thought i have a wonderful and relax holidays
but still need to work
although the work is relaxing...
just a few hours per days
but unlike my previous holidays....
somehow
i still earn money...
^.^v

pAinTinG

the first thing that i did in my first day of holiday is painting
today
i am helping my dad to paint quite a big wall....
tiring....
somehow is fun too...^.^v

fRiEnDs

while i am watching all this happened...
i am so clear that what is correct and what is wrong
i also can recognize who is correct and who is wrong
somehow...
i feel so shameful for some of them who did so many childish things
i thought i am the one who are so childish but actually i am the only one
they are still many in this are so childish
did all kind of things...
i really regret for not hearing the advices from my friends...
and now they are still cared for me...
i really regret...
regret knowing someone
if everything can turn back...
i will not choose the same way as i did last time...
my friends asking me why knowing this kind of people
"sorry,i really cannot answer you ,because i also do not know the answer"
you know who you are...
when i know all this happened
i felt so sorry to you because involve you all this argument...
i thought they are mature enough but actually they are not....

sorry,my super best and old friend
i know you are so cared for me
and always take care of me since i am still small until now..
thanks and sorry for all that...

gOiNG baCk

spending almost 10 days at KL here....
i thought will just came back for few days
but now is almost 10 days...
and tomorrow going back to hometown again....
super fast....

spending time at KL much more faster than spending time at kuantan...
Ivan really used most of his free time to spend with him...
we had tried all kinds of favorite foods
most of the movies...
buying things of cause...
somehow
i can only spending time with him 2 weeks later..
i believe time will just passed very fast
and soon i can meet him again
^_^V

aGaiN 2

today
Ivan and me went for movie again...
"the wedding games"
quite nice...
quite funny
this is the third that we watched within this one week...
although he is in exam period now
he still spending his time watching movie with me...
and also EAT...
almost 4 times a week of chicken chop...
sushi
MCdonald
KFC
and so on....
^.^v

sHarEd tEaRs

this was a nice article that i had read...
is about sharing tears...
A story is about a little boy with a big heart.His next door neighbor was an old gentleman whose wife had recently died...
when the youngster saw the elderly man crying,
he climbed up onto his lap and simply sat there...
Later,his mother asked the boy what he had said to their saddened neighbor
"nothing" the child replied.
"i just helped him cry."
sometimes that is the best thing we can do for people who are facing profound sorrow...
often,
our attempts to say something wise and helpful are far less valuable than just sitting next to the bereaved ones,
holding their hand
and crying with them
sometimes the best thing we can do for those who are traveling life's most sad and lonely road is to "help them cry".

a heartfelt tear can show our love
as words can never do
it says, "i want to share your pain
my heart goes out to you."

clEnInG

the main purpose of coming back KL is to clean everything up...
today,
once i wake up...
start cleaning up...
although the unit here is small
but it is actually big...
once finished cleaning everything
the first i did was SLEEP....
super TIRED....

feElInG

feeling is something really hard to explain...

sometimes sad

sometimes happy

sometimes angry...

there are all sort of feeling...

but is hard to control it also

these few days really have bad feeling toward peoples...

and of cause tired of it too...

i really do not know what to do...

maybe i am too self-fishes...

maybe i am those who always give accuse

maybe i am those who are wicked

maybe i am fake when facing people

maybe this 

and maybe that...

but really feel dissapointed when i know this is the real me...

i am scare of myself too...

but i even more scare of people

people is something that are very scary in this

they can did all kind of things just to pull you down

just to critism you and so on...

human...

scary...

if i know this is the end of everything

i will follow chose the same way as 1/4/2008,last year...

is a scary dream for me...

and finally i believe all my friends who is so care bout me

when everything reflect back into my mind

i really feel sorry for some of my friends who are so care bout me

i did not want to hear their adviced

i just ignore it

but finally what they said is true

aGaIn

today went for movie again...

quite funny...

is like so long not watching those movie...

^.^v

m0viE

once i reached KL,

Ivan and me went for movie again..

'inkheart'

fast right??

i also cannot imagine that...

somehow...

considered OK's movie