Finally...

once a year...

my birthday was over....

hmm...

what can i said??!!

thanks for all the wishes from my friends, cousins, family...

those who wish me through calls, sms and write on my wall in FACEBOOK

somehow...

did not have a great birthday but have those beloved to celebrate with me...

jac(my sis)

kok jun, yeow, jian wei (housemates)

pit ling all over from kepong, bih yar from all over B17-8

and ivan celebrate birthday with me....

haha...

they wanna gave me a surprise but acting like no electricity

but planning left out with small little mistake which is din planned with those who are not here as well....

HAHA...phone calls....

somehow, thank you for the cake, presents, surprise and small celebration...

in the afternoon,

ivan was buying me a super big secret recipe cake for me...

wooohooo....

huge cake...

i think i will gain in weight after eating all of it.....

thanks ya...ivan...

before my birthday, ivan was like wanna just buying a pack of rice ONLY...

somehow,

the rice change to cake

and having pizza at night...

although everything was a small wishes or celebration

but it is enough to show all the care and love from all of you...

happy with that...^^

i think the goal for this moment is pass all the exam paper..
well...
few more days to final exam..
preparation?? no
study?? not really...
understand of the subject?? totally not...
and yet exam is nearer..
this was the first time i really did lots of last minutes work
for example in my assignment and now...exam...
am i too relax previously and now cannot catch up everything...
i really do not know whether i am in stress or not
because i look like not really stress
but i am afraid of it...
in the first day of this semester
i thought off wanna get good result which is much more better than preciously...
but it seems like impossible...

i think i had made a wrong decision on something...
i really hope all will just be settle in A TIME...

sometimes i just wondering of myself
what is the big deal when you just have a small little illnesses such as gastric, cough and so on...
and you really look at it as a serious illnesses where you show and tell others that you are weak
compare to those who fight for their lives with illnesses in order to live...you weak or they weak??
when i read the magazines
really jealous of them..
where they still laugh and smile always
and also THEY DON'T THINK IT WAS A BIG DEAL...
and
what is the big deal when you just get 'kick' by your boyfriend or girlfriend??
is this is main purpose of your life??
and
what is the big deal when you just losses everything on earth??
you still have the loves supporting you...
there is lots of things in this world that are so important to us...
where i think i would not stay with the problem until i die...

my blog is dead for a long while..
and I AM COMING BACK AGAIN...
is week 13 now..
2 more weeks to my first final exam of Adv Dip..
have no idea on the subjects i took for this semester..
and i am like still in holiday mood...
really need that kind of 'motivation' to start my revision...
this time feel some stress because advance dip is totally different from diploma
is like more hard, more busy, more last minutes work compared to last time
really afraid that cannot get good mark for exam...
quite disappointed when i got the total marks for assignment or mid term test..
is quite low....and quite sad bout it..
maybe i had no really study so...
haiz...
hope that i really can do in my exam...
by the way...
i cannot celebrate my birthday this year...
the exam fall on 26th, 28th,30th of august and 2nd of sept..
huhu..
need to celebrate my birthday by reading the books...
and my birthday present is 'words'


i am like quite long din not dwell in the presence of God..
kinda miss Him where He is there always for me
i still remembered few times in Praise and celebration session
i had a deep feeling that He is there with all of us...
He always touch my heart in different ways..
songs, words and more...
He keep on reminding me that He is there with me no matter what..
and i saw myself dance happily with Him in the garden where the garden super beutiful(i think cannot get in the world)
and also saw myself have freedom where i can fly freely all over the place....the freedom that i get is hard to describe..
and it was the most freely way that i had ...
is always hard to decribed the freedom and happinest i get when i dwell in the presence of Him...

these few weeks..
really feel tired..
sleep quite early and wake up quite late...
besides, still had a small nap which is few hours in the afternoon...
is like all of my times spend on sleeping...
must remind myself not to sleep too much..

these few weeks was a busy week
where i just finished rushing all my assignment
and all the mid term test
and i just finished joining advance class for clay..
really feel that i am weak in doing clay when i saw the work from teacher
where she really can made everything in a few while compared to me...
she might just take a short time to finish one project but me....longer time...
will post some photos on what i had did...

last but not least....
gambateh to all of my friends who take final exam ^^