dEep iNsIdE...

sometimes
especially these few days
really feel a bit stress
i feel like i am left out the syllabus that all the lecturer's teaching
i am keep on rushing rushing and rushing
the first thing that come into my mind is RUSH for it
all the presentation
coursework which is coming soon
tutorial works
understand what i do not understand
lots...
although is short semester
but everything was too rush...
today
do not know why
easily get angry
i have lots of things that is going to tell someone
but finally all the words was swallow back...
do not know who can talk to
hard to get someone that is really can talk to
although there is always someone there
but......
is hard...

thank Abba Father that He really hear my prayer
He has bring me through everything that i find it hard to accept in their opinion
i really feel unfair of saying that
i everyone really thought what i get is hard
but thank God...is not
is totally different...
i manage to finish it in one day
and within this one day
He is giving me strength to continue
can u imagine someone that is not eating for one whole day
and lack of sleeping still have energy to do their work??

do not why
still have some indescribable that still keep deeply in my heart
all the problems and stress really influences me lots
crying for few nights for this
just to release it
but is hard too...

at the same times
when i realized my words toward him is so harsh
i really feel sorry and really do not know what to do at that moment
my mind was totally blank
headache...

i think is time for me to take a break by relaxing my mind for not thinking anything...
maybe one movie or one song
or even 'one day trip' in a shopping mall...