31st DEC

today will be the last day for 2008....
going to end everything..
everything that happened this year will be past
but what i doing now still in present
waiting for future...
wish??
dream??
lots for next year...
waiting for it to come...

i think i still left one more thing that haven settle down...
friend's problem
maybe you think i am wrong saying those words to you...
and you think that if i really treat you as friend,
those words will not come out from my mouth...
right??
just say sorry to you here...
maybe you think is not enough...
but is your choice to choose forgive me or not...
won force you to forgive me
just hope we are still friend...
if i know this will be the end of our friendship...
then,
i will not choose as what i did that day...
because i don't hope friendship just end so...
somehow..
this is all i can do...
and if you still making the same decision
then...
this is what you choose...

somehow...
new year coming
i need to look forward but not backward...
waiting new thing come into my life...

thanks Emily..
thanks for your advice
really happy that i still have chance to talked to you
really miss you...
and all of my friends...
although not going back kuantan even have holidays
but i still super miss you all
waiting for the days that i really can crapping with all of you...
always miss the times that we spend together

HAPPY NEW YEAR

13 days to final exam

fiNalLy...

today
after class went to shopping again with yeow...
finally get the shoes that i have been finding so long...
almost walked all the shoes' shop in sg wang
but still cannot get and finally i saw one pair of shoe which almost same as what i want...
then,
not thinking too much it
buy it....

finally i found out the price for sushi buffer per person
quite expensive...
but actually it is almost the same price as normal sushi that i bought...
i think must go try if got chance...

finally,
my parent know what i keep from them since long ago...
since they know it...
i think i am free from something
left out one problem...
yeepee...
happy...
but still have lots of things to worry bout
hope everything will get well soon

14 days to final exam

fEw daYs

left few more days will be the new year for us...
when i recalled back on what i did within the year of 2008...
there is a lot of things happened in my life...
things that i really memorable to me...
this year got lots of happiness
and of cause sadness...
i think i should done more things next year...
got lots of dreams...

today,
he is explaining a lots of things to me
maybe is to calm down the feeling of afraid or scare in my heart...
maybe its help
maybe no
just do not how to explain the feeling...
i know really nothing happened
but how to say...
really cant express it out...
hope everything will be fine
praying hard...for everything...

15 days to final exam

lAsT sUndAy

today will be the last Sunday for 2008...
so fast...
yet now is the last Sunday...
but nothing special
as usual went to church..
is just Sunday for 2008 will not coming back again...

today
while i were praying
telling God what i feel
what i afraid of
what i confuse of
what i worried of
and He is answering my prayer
i know that i am wrong in doing something
He is telling me that i am wrong
at that moment
i just feel so sorry to Him
i do not know what can do..
because until this moment i still afraid and worried of it...
hope all my worries will just go out from my mind...
hope everything will be settle down...

*17 days to final exam*

shOpPinG

today,
just spend almost my whole day at Time Square again..
i went with Ivan...
really bought lots of things
is like almost finish preparing things for Chinese New Year...
did not spend much
but can bought lots....
and of cause must thank him for choosing most of things for me
because i really got no idea in buying clothes
beside,
i think i don't have better taste like him...

after finished buying things
we went for movie
"The Day the Earth stood still"
the story is short
and is like cutting down a lots of story until that short
overall still ok...
and waiting free time to watch Bedtimes story....

SuRpRis3-pArT 2

today is Christmas
the day that i have been waiting for many long...
somehow...
today just passed by normal day...
something that different is he is celebrating the Christmas with me...
he spend his whole day with me...
we just did nothing....
watching some of the series movie....

he is a really nice guy that i had met...
he give me those comfortable feeling when spending time with him...
he won force me to do anythings that i don't like...
he really treat me good...
today,
he is giving me another surprise...
this is the second surprise that he gave to me since i know him...
he is introducing me another friend,Patrick...
a super cute dog...
i really shock
because as usual...
after i finish settle down everything
i will just continue the movie
then suddenly...
he is telling me that he wanna introduce a dog for me
i thought i heard wrong or what
then,
he shown cute Patrick
really cute
thank you so much for doing such lots of things for me...

cHrIstMaS

MERRY　CHRISTMAS
to
MY FRIENDS...

i celebrate my Christmas at hotel...
everything like so different
although the event at here is much more interesting
the venue is like much more grand
the people here more cloud
but the feeling that i have is totally different
i really miss my home church a lots...
my friends are all there
is like more comfortable celebrate with them
a lots of around me at KL here
but i am still like celebrate alone
wanna joined them...
long time did not go yc with them....
last time i am the one who helped in Christmas
but now is my turn sitting down to see the performances
hope that i can joined them next year...

today messages and all the event run through really touch my heart
don't know why
just feel touching...
i just remembered few sentences

we may seem different on the outside
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but inside all the same
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Christmas is about giving and giving no matter what...

cHrIsTmAS EvE

yeepee............
today is Christmas eve
Christmas coming
waiting for it since long long time ago
and yet tonight is my home church's celebration
really feel miss them....
really is my first time not involving in their celebration
i still remembered past few years i am involving in the drama...
hehez....
funny acting from my friends....
love to see them act in drama....
this year cannot make it....
is ok...
i will try my best to join them next year...

some of my friends asked me...
why did not go back??
my friends in kuantan thought i busy....
but some of my other friends
thought i did not go back is because of someone...
but how can them so confirmed about this??
they know me??
boring in explaining why did not go back to them....

somehow....
MERRY CHRISTMAS EVE TO MY FRIENDS....

lOv3 hUrtS

i find this article was nice when i reading on it....
is about love hurts....

sometimes love sure hurts!
the mother and father were expressing the difficulties and heartaches of guiding their children through their teen years...
the couple was expressing the sadness when moving along with her/his partner....
the person was expressing the difficulties of joining their friends...
maybe if we did not love them quite so much, it would not be so hard...
even though love brings pain and sorrow,what would life be without it??

someone said this:

to love at all is to be vulnerable
love anything and your heart will be wrung and possibly be broken
if you want to make sure of keeping it intact,
you must give your heart to no one,
no even an animal
wrap it carefully around with hobbies and little luxuries
avoid all entanglements
lock it up safe in the case or coffin of your selfishness

but what is the point of your life if we keep on closing our heart to love anyone of them??
to love is to take risks
to expose our hearts
sometimes it hurts!!
but this is because we care for them too much...


therefore,
truly loving that spouse,that teenager,that neighbor,that friends
and it's better than locking your heart in the coffin or self -centeredness
because
nothing costs as much as loving
except no loving

mOod.....

finally,
timetable for examination is released...
can say happy because everything was settle down before Chinese New Year....
is unhappy because it seems like everything packed together...
if i really cannot finished revision before exam
then i think i not manage to score for that subject
somehow,
i think now is the time i really need to put more effort in it....
because i really have no confident in it....

i quite unhappy with one of the member in our assignment group
what she did really sorry.....
since last semester until this semester still in the same group as her....
i really not agree with it...
she thought what she did is correct and don't even asked comment from 3 of us
end up...
we need to redo and correct it again
and until now she still haven send the information to me...
then??
what i can say about her???
hope forever she will not be in the same group as me

the third thing is our account teacher....
he thought who he is
the way he teaches really effective
but his attitude super bad...
he don't ever think that his attitude got problem
but he just point his finger at us and said we are wrong
what type of teacher is this....
really.....
if i am not under my control,
i think he already got shoot by me....

cHrIstMaS??

yeow and me went to Christmas party which held at our neighbour's house who is also our church members.....
is fun...
although is quite a simple Christmas party but it really nice...
its really look like the real Christmas...
count downing for 25th of December....
waiting for it since long time ago....
woohoo.....
still got few more days to go....

there is Christmas celebration

DATE : 24th of DECEMBER 2008
VENUE : Kuala Lumpur International Hotel
TIME : 7.30pm (pre-event)
8.30pm

all are welcome....

sometimes i feel like it is important to make myself free on Sunday or those important days...
i must make sure that i am free on those days...
no matter how busy or how tired am i..
there is no excuses for me to "take leave" on those day...
i feel like there is no other things are much more important...
unless really have something much more important...
somehow
just depend on you in how to look at things
different people have different view
therefore,
all the above just what i think...

wAitInG

i am waiting for those days to come...
waiting for it...
especially Christmas's eve
Christmas that day itself
the day after i finished my final exam...
the day i can have my holidays...

i think it might be fun on Christmas's eve night....
waiting for the programs that well prepared by them..
curious what will be the programs and what will happen on that day

although i did not go back kuantan for my Christmas
and yet this is the first time not going back
but he celebrate with me...
you hope i stay at KL but you wanted me to go back....
i think you had been thinking this for so long right??
actually i had make decision before i asked you that question
that's why i am not going back
besides,
my mum just asked me to stay..

i think i have not been going to their gathering for more than half a year...
this time...
i thought i am going back
and yet i told my friends
but end up...
i cannot make it
feel like so sorry to my friends
my primary school's friends, MC4clanz, my church's friends....
i think for sure can meet you all next year
but i think you all will be busy that time....

i just wanna finish my final exam now...
sometimes feel stress in it...
i have no confident for this semester...
i scare i might fail in some subject....
is a MUST for me to passed it...
i cannot fail in any subject
but i think is quite hard for me too...
going to study hard from now onwards...
cannot let anything to stop from it...

holidays..............
i love holidays
because at least i am free for some days....
with no study problems....
and of cause i can have my favorite foods that sell in kuantan
so long...
almost 3 months have not eating them
miss all the foods
start listing up the foods that i wanna eat when i go back...
waiting for it...

ReAlLy TiReD

i really feel tired...
i got no more idea in what to do....
some said what i did is still considered ok...
some said what i did is wicked and off....
so what shall i do??
i don't think i can follow others to do things right??
Mr.A said i am right
Mr.B said i am wrong...
so??i should stand at which side??

maybe most of you agree that i really changed
and i might change to a person that you don't know
i might change to a scary person
i might smile in front of you but actually i am thinking in my heart on how to so called 'kill' or hurt you...
this is what people think of me now...
maybe yes
maybe no

just tired of all these...
i do not know why a small matters can just turn up like this....
i also do not know why all these happened...
i thought everything just settle down easily...
but actually cannot....

one thing just come into my mind is...
relationship is hard to maintain
especially boy girl relationship...
friendship...
easy to start for these two relationship
but once things happened...
hard to solve it...
anyway..
scare of it...

what i wrote in my blog just to write out all my feeling
i don't meant anything inside here
i might write this
but the day after tomorrow
i might forget about it...
so...
it is not letting people to point all the mistakes
and also saying i am wrong...
i think i should end with...
i am not a good blogger...

tAlKiNg

i think i had been emphasize this a lots of times...
what you speak is just come out from your heart...
while you think so much,
then those angry feeling will just store in your heart and finally
you just do it by action or by talking

trust or don't trust depend on how you look at me...
different people have different view when looking at me as jasmine
and i cannot control the way you look at me,right??
i cannot change your view or comment on me...
so...
no point i keep on explain on i did and so on....
i am no those person that like to give explanation...
i will not like to give explanation when i am wrong
for me,
wrong means wrong
correct means correct
don't change the facts...
and those people who know me well
they know that i don't like to explain
if you do not know this....
i tell you now......

i treat everyone the same...
you might think that i treat you like treating a ball
got problems will find you
no problems...bye...get out from my life...
i am not those kind of people....
but who can really understand that
actually college life is not that free or easy....

today
finally finished
macroeconomics' coursework
what can i said for that??
one word can explain all...
DIE...
just cannot imagine what will i get for this
pass or fail??
afraid to think of it...
i think is time for me to start study...
wanna go back to my old life in order to get better results...
gambateh to all of my friends who start preparing for final exam...

tagged by David

i tag
1:kelven
2:pit ling
3:su jean
4:woon yee
5:shi min
6:shirley
7:hong thong

How you know 1?
from church,shalom fellowship since 2006

What would you do if you never meet 2?
will try my best to find out who is that person

What would you do if 3&4 dated you?
erm....i don't think they will date me...because they will dated "someone"

Would 5&6 make a good couple?
erm...nO....

Do you think 4 is attractive?
she is sexy....haha...

Do you know anything about 1's family?
yes....he have father,mother,sister ,brother

Tell me something about 7?
She is a good solver to settle down all those chasing problem

What language does 2 speaks?
mandarin

Who is 3 going out with?
curry chicken

How old is 5?
same as me..

When was the last time u talk to 1?
i think one week before today

Who is 6's favorite singer?
i don't know T.T

Would you date 7?
i think so because she look busy than me

6 single?
i guess so..

What is 5's last name?
min

Would you consider being in a relationship with 1?
NO!!!!! the answer is definitely no

Which school does 2 goes to?
Tunku Abdul Rahman College..

What do you like about 3?
always in blur situation....

cHrIsTmAs cEl3bRatIoN

there is a Christmas celebrate at Kuala Lumpur International Hotel.....
on Christmas eve that night....
happy...
and i am waiting that day to come...
do not know why...
Christmas bring some special of feeling to me...
but on Christmas that itself got no planned on how to celebrate
because i no more in kuantan this Christmas...
therefore got no plan
besides,
KL here sure got lots of people whenever we go especially on Christmas
so...
stay at home better right??

just feel like soon will having boring Christmas
somehow,
he know i did not go back kuantan
and he planned to celebrate with me...
happy to hear that...
at least he come to celebrate with me...
his caring just touch me lots
i know thanks cannot replace everything that he did
somehow,
still need to say thanks right??
this mean that i really appreciate what you did for me since the beginning until now...

yEs oR nO

actually i planned so long that i am going back on Christmas that day
i thought i can celebrate at my home church...
but when i called back
they celebrate on Christmas eve
so it seem like i cannot join them
because my class end at 6pm
even when i rush back,
the event just will end once i reached
so...
no going back this Christmas.....
i told my friends that i going back
and now not going back,
and miss those gathering again
owh.........
and of cause miss the chance that can talk with my friends...
sorry......my friends........

this time is my first time not going back home for 2months over.......
if my parent did not came KL
i think i will only have chance next year....

this few days keep on getting call from my mum and sister about staying problems
there is very troublesome when we got no house at KL
staying at others' house is like troublesome and also not that good....
i keep on thinking those problems that happened.....
i really cannot think of better way to solve it...
so...
the conclusion is they will stay with me when they come to KL....

fInaLlY fInIshEd

today is the last day for us to join curriculum
finally.....
i been joining tennis around 8 weeks
learned a lots of things...
of course tennis consider a new sport for me too....
quite tiring but really fun........

i am late for curriculum day
do not know why i just don't feeling well....
since last night until this morning...
luckily,
he is there when i really sick.....
he take care me yesterday night....
i think he whole night don't sleep well.....
thanks....

somehow
finally finished curriculum for this semester..
i can start to focus in my studied now....
must pass all the subject for this semester......
this is my aim............

lIf3

today
right after class
me and Ivan to KLCC
just to buy something
i thought i might spend much times in it
but out of my expectation
finished everything before 1pm
super fast right??

after when we reached home,
Ivan and me started to discuss those misunderstanding happened between us....
he told me a lots of things
his opinion
his comment....
most of them is about things that happened in our life
and so on
somehow some of our opinion just different....
think differently
maybe i might accept what he said
but i think i still have my own opinion
is hard for me to change
because this is my original opinion
right??
i think you sure will understand it...

lEaRnEd

these two days i really learned a lots of things...
inside and also outside...
really increase my faith...
we a re like onion...
in order to cook onion...
its skin must be wiped off one by one and its take time
because we might stop in the middle...
and as we know,wiped off onion's skin is very hard to control tears not to flow out...
right??
it is same as us,human....
we got lots of hurt and bitterness in our heart
in order to wiped it off from our heart
its really take times....
we might cry in the middle of 'wiping off'
but i believe in one day...
all the hurts and bitterness will be wiping off...
just by faith...

sometimes
i might have negative thinking about myself like i am not good ,i am not as pretty as other girl
i am not as smart as other girl...and so on
but after the classes within these few days
i know in God's eye i am perfect because is HE created me...
He created me with purpose...
i really understand finally...

there is lots of opinion about friends in my chat box...
really thanks lots for all the comment or opinion...
maybe different peoples have different view about friends...
wanna thanks that you all still remembered me...
friends are really all around me but i will fell lonely when i am in troubles
when i have problems...
at that moment,
i really thought of i got no friends at all....
there is why i also settle down all my problems myself without telling friends...
somehow,
just thanks that you all still there be with me
i think i will change my opinion about friends....

to my friend,Emily...
maybe at this moment
you still cannot get any best friend or friends that you can tell your problems to...
maybe you are tired with it...
but i am still here with you...
maybe you didn't realized that actually i always viewing your blog to know how are you all that.........
wanna know how's life when you went back kuantan...
when read through your blog
feel that you are so depressed like me...
but now i am totally good
i find the way to walk out...
i hope you too..........
maybe what i said now is wrong...
somehow i still there with you
always love and miss you...

a dAy t0 b3 r3m3mb3r3d

today....
i really in bad mood
i don't feel like talking and even accompany others....
i just want to be alone....
once i wake up early in the morning,
some misunderstand occur
i not really mind
but it is all about whether i did it or not...
besides,
lots of things come into my mind and make me get into the situation of misunderstanding...

the night before,
i really thought of closing this blog and forever disappear...
and also thought of not posting my feeling ,my thought here...
because i do not want someone say he/she understand is just after reading my blog...
do not act like you are so understand me unless you really go into deep of my heart
there is no such thing like..
'i so understand you, jasmine' and yet you just read through my blog....
there is lots of things in my mind that man forever cannot understand
i might do something that you really cannot thought of it...
and this is me...

when i really fall into so called 'own world'
someone really pick me up....
she sms me....
and her words really help me lots...
i told her my problems
is because i believe her...
she will not tell around my secret to the others...
she will not tell my problems to the others just to get advice or solutions by others to help me even did not say out my name....
she will just tell me what should i do...
i just wanna thanks her for everything...

Choong min
my so called teacher and best friend...
he treat me super good...
although he just teaches me for few months
but we are like super best friends...
he sms me and support me all the time
thanks....

thanks God that He know my situation...
He speaks to me through bible study time...
and finally i got the way to bind IT
and i got free from everything
my faith increases
His words is powerful to solve everything ....

Fri3nds???aGaIn??

i still remembered pass few days

i had read one passage

about

TO HAVE ONE,BE ONE

its said that all of us need at least one or two close friends.

One guy defined a friend as someone who knows all about you and likes you just the same

some said:

a friend may well be reckoned the masterpiece of nature

some said:

a friend is the first person to come in when the whole world goes out...

in Proverbs said that a friend loves at all times...

yes...is true that we cant improve on that definition

to have someone who remains true to us under all circumstances is on of life's choicest blessings

the support and encouragement that only a close friend can offer is sorely needed when

the burden of life weigh heavily upon us...

sometimes...

i think that to get a close friend is not that easy...

some friends might betray you...

some friends might hurt you...

some friends might use you when they need you...

friends??

what is friends??

sometimes

just wanna close myself in a small square box...

away from the true world

away from people around me...

keep staying in my world

a world there is super silence which can away from busyness

i still remembered one night

it is almost 4am in the morning,

standing alone...

looked around the silence KL

i just feel lonely

suddenly just miss my family...

at that moment

i am thinking...

where are my friends??

they are all around me...

plenty of them...

but who is the one that still know the presence of me...

i keep on thinking this question...

some might think that

u might have no friends

but you still got lover beside you...

for me...

there is no different...

your lover might just forever be with you...

but do he or she really understand deep inside your heart...

the true friend that i ever find in my life is He,Jesus...

He see me in such a way that people cant see it...

He see all my goodness instead of weakness

He change all my weaknesses but not dumb on me...

somehow

in this world

we still need friends

in proverb...

makes an important point and takes us beyond the description of what it means to be a friend

friendliness must begin with us...

when it comes to friends

TO HAVE ONE
YOU MUST BE ONE

DaY

i am late for class today....
my class start at 8am
and yet i woke up at 7.30am
is quite rush for me because....
i needed to use 15 minutes to settle up myself and go to college by BUS...........
luckily,
i can finished cleaning up myself within 15 minutes....
super fast...
rushing to bus stop and at the same time
i am carrying winnie the pooh..
the pooh pooh is like not that big and not that small
just troublesome
somehow is woon yee's birthday present...
hope she like it...

yesterday night before sleep,
i just feel confused in something
don't know why
i just keep on asking myself
who am i..
who am i
and who am i...
keep on asking
suddenly i got no idea in who am i...
i am lost at that time....
really lost because i cant find myself...
at that time
got noone who can answer me this
i feel scared and afraid
then
one voice come into me
the voice told me that i am child of God
i am His daugther
and suddenly all my faith come back again
i am not confused in this question
and my mood turn from emo to happy....
i know is His voice talking me
He is the one who did not leave me
burn my faith up when i am down
know my heart well...
is HE....
He is like my father and also friend
never leave me........
He is good......

sOngS

Songs............
when i feel sad,
i will automatically press worships' songs...
those songs will conform my heart
will let me have peace in my heart.........
sometimes,
i might cry it out
crying will bring me comfort not because of guilty....

while i was worshiping Him,
i just can feel that he is just right beside me
hug me when i sad
hold my hand along the journey of my life
cleanse all my sins when i really did something wrong
He is so good until not leaving me alone no matter how....
He forever be the same...
last time,now and until the earth end...
when seeing He so mighty,
i really feel like i am small....
small until like an ant...
need Him all the times...
so that i can rest my soul,mind and body...

mOoD

we got a lots of different mood in our daily life
sad...
bad...
happy...
confuse...
and so on.......
sometimes
we might sad in this moment
but suddenly will change to happy next moment...

some of us might get controlled by their own feeling or mood......
when we are happy,
we will treat everyone better...
but when we are in sad mood...
we will put all our mood to everything around us...
for example,
when we are angry,
then we might scold someone

we should not let feeling or mood control us...
we should control them....
do you know when all the feeling control us...
we might do something hurts...
but forever we won realized it....

the words that speak out is the easiest way to hear others...
mouth and heart is directly related...
what your heart think,
your mouth will speak it out....
do not let your heart let your mouth unclean....

Sunday's messages really speak into my heart...
its said that
stay in faith and do what the Word says,rather than doing what you feel...
we are all inexperienced in too much of life to be without a guide.
therefore,
God's Word is the guide...

cHaNgE

everything was changed in my blog except all the post...
for me is the big changes
because i really don't have good skill in making it to old blog again
and its almost taken me few hours to finished going this blog...
take times
but when i look it again...
its does not wasting my time...

blog change....
my life also change...
since i know Him
my life change...
my life change to more challenging
somehow i learned lots in all the challenge that i met..
my life seem to be more challenging...
so...
is it good??

beside,
my hairstyle also change
today went for hair cutting
sad....
the girl don't cut my hair into what i wanted
not really nice...
wanna back my old hairstyle
T.T
hope my hair will grow faster....

someone
who know me well...
wanted me to left my problems to him...
thanks lots
he so understand me
when i stuck in the middle between friends
he help me...
when i cried
he just sat beside me and hear all my problems...
he try to help me solve everything secretly...
when i wanna this and that
he will try to get it for me...

it seem like everything changed...
no matter what change in my life
just pray that the friendship between me and my friends will never change...
it will just be the same...

dReAm

is normal that we have a dream...
my dream always come true
after few days sure will happened after few days later...
is true...
somehow i don't believe too much on my dream...

is not wrong to believe what you dream
but do not believe too much in it
because maybe it is fate
if is true then nothing
but what if it is fate??
u might disappointed...

sometimes
i cannot recognise whether the dream is given by God or is just a normal dream
i cannot differentiate it...
maybe i still do not have a close relationship with God
therefore i cannot differentiate it
but dream somehow is just a dream

therefore
pray hard to differentiate which is the vision and which is the dream...

tOdAy

noone else can ever give me the feeling when i am worship...
the feeling while i am worshiping is undescribable
sometimes touch
sometimes really is like wanna jump around...
sometimes wanna cry...
lots more...
today while worshiping,
i saw myself standing in front of the cross
i look tiny and small
and the cross look so large....
large until i cannot see the top...

message for today sermon is nice
i really learned something after the messages
we are told that not to do thing by following our feeling but using God's Word....
sometimes
we do doing things by following our feeling
therefore easily got into wrong step
but with His Word
this can be avoid...
so...
His Word in our lives is very important...
must read it...

SuRpRiC3

surprise???
i always wondering what is the feeling when you really got the surprise from
family??
lover??
best friends??
friends??
the feeling is really nice....
because is like they did lots of things without telling you...

to :my friend (you know who you are)
i really feel surprise when i got the key chain from you...
i did not expect that you bought it and keep it until today...
really surprise...
i feel shock at the same time
you told me that it is a empty box
but when i hold it...
it does not seem empty
and once i opened it...
is the key chain and this is the forth key chain you had given to me
i thought you will wait and buy together with me
but ....everything was perfectly planned by you
i know you understand me very well....
without saying a word,
you can guess what am i trying to say next..
but i cannot....
am i look poor in it??
am i still lack of understanding??
hope there will be no argument between us
because of my slow reaction in understand you or my slow thinking....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY
to
WOON YEE

hope all your dreams come true...

aGaIn

today,
i meet him again
is quite long din meet him...
and we go time square for movie again....
before that,
we visited his house
and we really decided to shift there next year
nice environment
and i think God will plan for us....
maybe He has another plan for us....

we almost spend whole day in time square
really got lots of things wanna buy
but at the end don't even buy a thing....
is hard....

then,at 7.30pm
i watched movie with Ivan ,Pit Ling and Eric....
Bolt is a funny and cute movie...
don't feel sleepy when watching it....
so...
if got any chance must try to watch that movie...

pHoTos

mE AnD WoOn yE3

Yi ShAn anD m3

ChOoN pEnG

m3 and tIcK KiAt

all these are the photos that taken when we finished our presentation....
sorry for not uploading last week because of network problem.....

kNow oR dOn't kNoW

still left one more month is my final exam....
now getting stress and stress
because i don't have much confident in this final exam....
the time for this semester really not enough....
Monday :class start at 11am ,then 7pm only end of the class
Tuesday :class start at 8pm until 4pm
Wednesday :from 8.30am until 6pm
Thursday :from 9am until 5.30pm
almost used half of my day....
when i reached home...
is tired...
no more energy to do other things
the only thing i always did after is SLEEP....
sleep the whole day until the next class
and start preparing for classes....
feel like don't have time to finish my tutorial or even doing revision...
this is so called college life....
maybe for someone it is not that busy...
not that hard
but when you standing in my position
u will know how hard and tired it is....

the real Jasmine do not like to explain everything to people on what she did...
because she not really care what others thing bout her....
she don't need the confirmation from others
or agreement from others
misunderstanding toward her is normal...
i don't think i need to explain how my life pass everyday...
it is not important....
i seldom tell all my problem to the others
because i think that its cant help anything
somehow all of my friends who are so caring will try to help me solve all the problems
and not throwing stone to me...

this semester really happened a lots of things in my life
i gain lots of experiences toward the things that i passed through
i just understand how this world run....
before this
i was stand under my parent's protection until i know nothing...
but now,
i really understand much and thank God
i am more independent and mature now...
when you look at me,
physically i look no problem
but who can understand deep inside my heart except Him who is so mighty
who know i am crying deep inside my heart
who know i am crying everyday before sleep
who know???
i might look strong outside
but actually i am weak
i hope there is someone who just sit beside me and hear all my problems
and thank God there is someone
there is someone that hear all my problems
someone who try to help me solve the problem
someone who just sit beside me when i am crying
there is someone.....

at this moment
i really weak in every circumstances...
i am not that strong like last time
because God has changed me from a selfish person to a more caring person
at least i know how to care for others which i won do it before i know Christ
do you agree with me??hehez....
i start to smile after i know Him
i start to talk after i know Him....
everything in my life was changed....
hope my friend will understand me that i am keeping everything and also using my time do useless things

tIm3

today is 4th of December....
year 2008 coming to the end
time passed really fast...
i had been staying KL for 7 months
and i almost finished 2nd semester of my course....

by the way,
Christmas is also coming soon
every year just waiting for this day....
do not know what will happen on that day....
as usual,
i will spend my Christmas at my home church
although i might get something new in my second church but i still miss my home church
i grow from there,a small church
although is small
i really learned a lots of things
and also know lots of friends from there....
is the place where i can start my christian life again....
although its takes my 3 hours journey back
but the place still kept inside my heart all the times....

going back to Kuantan on Christmas
wanna meet my friends again....
miss them so much....
hope to see them soon.....

WoRds

i learned something from previous cell group session
in Roman 12:2
it said that 'do not conform any longer to the pattern in this world,but be transformed by the renewing of your mind.Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is........His good,pleasing and perfect will'
sometimes we might follow the pattern of this world,
we do not know whether it is correct or not
somehow,we just follow it because others is doing the same thing also...
but sometimes it is a mistake in God's eye and yet we do not know and keep on doing it....
therefore,
we must renew our mind,
so that we might follow His view...

sometimes
the words speak out from our mouth really hurt someone
and yet we don't even know that
do not ever know that the words that you speak might come true....
therefore do not speak bad words or curse others
because all the cursing that speak out from your mouth might come true....

start from today,
speak out those beautiful word which can touch others' heart
^_^v

lOnG

it is almost one week i had not been online
because of network problems
quite troublesome without internet
not manage to get information for studied used...

i really got not much time for this semester
i got no more time to do other things
is my fault if i did not do my part at home
i am like standing at the top of mountain
like no other way for me walk through
i am afraid that i cannot manage to understand the topic that teacher teaching
plenty of homework
a tons of it....
really much...
pray that with His strength i can understand what is teaching by lecturer....

fAmIlY

thank God....
my dad recovered much more faster than other patients that got the same illness....
he is resting in my aunt's house
i feel more relaxing now
i am not that afraid like last time
i scare of losing him...
he is the best father....
he treat me the best...
he is happy when seeing 3 of us standing in front of him and take care of him....
just wanna thank God for hearing my prayer and answering my prayer
i been prayed for at least one month
He know that i am crying in my heart for all the problems that i met...
thank you,Father....

tIr3d

HAPPY BIRTHDAY
to
YEE SHAN

today,
i went for tennis practice
really learned something....
at least i know some of the skill in playing tennis
although is tired but feel happy after learning it
i had been trying my best to learn tennis
tennis is a tiring and hard sport
it is not easy for me
but still need to try it...

after tennis,
i study for my coming account exam and also presentation
feel scared
scare to talk in front of everyone,especially my classmates
but the same verse come into my mind again
Phillipian 4:13
by faith i think i can do it....